Day 2
Currently listening to - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iW-s9fop4d4
V1 has had some interesting effects on me so far, some of them are positive, some of them are quite negative I feel, while others are just neutral and interesting from an observational standpoint.
Last night I played 5 loops of TS while I slept. I had sexual dreams of an ex for the entire night. At some point I'm pretty sure I started dreaming of having sex with another girl that wasn't one of my ex's, but this is two nights of really sexual dreams. Last nights I remember a bit more clearly than the first nights dreams. This would be the neutral observation that I had.
The positives today were that I was feeling a bit more social, albeit scatterbrained. I was fairly calm and detached for most of the day, and interacted with people pretty freely. I couldn't focus so much on my on work as I could yesterday, but generally my mood was pretty good. I haven't really noticed much in the way of attraction from women today. Actually, for most of the day I had strangers avoid me for some reason. Like, purposely get out of their way to avoid me. However, people that do know me were much more social with me today than they normally are. That was kind of cool.
The negative however is that in the morning and again in the evening, I was raging. I had tapped against something and I went full on rage. I don't quite understand what it is that's triggering these feelings of rage, I think it may be the unfocused energy just channeling itself in a direction because it doesn't have a proper outlet maybe. I'm not sure.
V1 is tapping into something, perhaps because it is so sexually focused, that it's playing up some of the darker parts of my being.
I'm going to try to keep going with V1 for the remaining 8 days unless I feel like it's getting to me in a way that I absolutely can't deal with.
I will say this much, I am glad that I decided to do this run of V1. If for no other reason, just because I think whatever this version is triggering inside of me, it's good for it to come to the surface. Eventually, when I am done with V1 and move back to 2.5 or transition to 3.0.1, I'll be able to record these experiences for my own benefits.
And perhaps build on them as I continue my journey.
Currently listening to - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iW-s9fop4d4
V1 has had some interesting effects on me so far, some of them are positive, some of them are quite negative I feel, while others are just neutral and interesting from an observational standpoint.
Last night I played 5 loops of TS while I slept. I had sexual dreams of an ex for the entire night. At some point I'm pretty sure I started dreaming of having sex with another girl that wasn't one of my ex's, but this is two nights of really sexual dreams. Last nights I remember a bit more clearly than the first nights dreams. This would be the neutral observation that I had.
The positives today were that I was feeling a bit more social, albeit scatterbrained. I was fairly calm and detached for most of the day, and interacted with people pretty freely. I couldn't focus so much on my on work as I could yesterday, but generally my mood was pretty good. I haven't really noticed much in the way of attraction from women today. Actually, for most of the day I had strangers avoid me for some reason. Like, purposely get out of their way to avoid me. However, people that do know me were much more social with me today than they normally are. That was kind of cool.
The negative however is that in the morning and again in the evening, I was raging. I had tapped against something and I went full on rage. I don't quite understand what it is that's triggering these feelings of rage, I think it may be the unfocused energy just channeling itself in a direction because it doesn't have a proper outlet maybe. I'm not sure.
V1 is tapping into something, perhaps because it is so sexually focused, that it's playing up some of the darker parts of my being.
I'm going to try to keep going with V1 for the remaining 8 days unless I feel like it's getting to me in a way that I absolutely can't deal with.
I will say this much, I am glad that I decided to do this run of V1. If for no other reason, just because I think whatever this version is triggering inside of me, it's good for it to come to the surface. Eventually, when I am done with V1 and move back to 2.5 or transition to 3.0.1, I'll be able to record these experiences for my own benefits.
And perhaps build on them as I continue my journey.
