Initially I wanted to run ASC for September (and more depending on the results) but figured I should just run DMSI since goal #2 enhance much more than just self-confidence, and I wanted to get some of the DGAF attitude again.
I finished my important work for August so September is safe to mess arroung. Unless something unusual comes up.
The past 4 days I was really mindfull of my mental, physical states and emotional well being. Because I wanted to know how the sub I'd run for September would change me.
During these 4 days I was more or less normal. Enjoying my daily routine without much complaints. I wasn't excessively happy, but I wasn't sad at all nor depressed.
So, today I ran DMSI 3.1 A. I wanted to only run 2 loops but the media player I downloaded recently sucks so fucking much and I only realized it when I woke up. I have a playlist of 2 tracks of DMSI, but the player looped throught them the whole night, even tho the "loop" option was off. -_-""
So, first blatant effect of the sub on me: I woke up at 3PM. I slept at 1AM so I just slept for 14 hours.
But I remember I slightly woke up at 12AM, feeling tired and feeling like shit to be alone. I was too low of energy to woke up totally so I just drifted to sleep until 3PM.
Now at 3PM I don't feel as much tired, and my motivation is somewhat normal, but my mood is low. Seems like a low to middle depression. Nothing seems enjoyable and life is favorless.
Tonight I'll make sure to only run 2 loops as I plan to stick to that amount until the end of September.
I finished my important work for August so September is safe to mess arroung. Unless something unusual comes up.
The past 4 days I was really mindfull of my mental, physical states and emotional well being. Because I wanted to know how the sub I'd run for September would change me.
During these 4 days I was more or less normal. Enjoying my daily routine without much complaints. I wasn't excessively happy, but I wasn't sad at all nor depressed.
So, today I ran DMSI 3.1 A. I wanted to only run 2 loops but the media player I downloaded recently sucks so fucking much and I only realized it when I woke up. I have a playlist of 2 tracks of DMSI, but the player looped throught them the whole night, even tho the "loop" option was off. -_-""
So, first blatant effect of the sub on me: I woke up at 3PM. I slept at 1AM so I just slept for 14 hours.
But I remember I slightly woke up at 12AM, feeling tired and feeling like shit to be alone. I was too low of energy to woke up totally so I just drifted to sleep until 3PM.
Now at 3PM I don't feel as much tired, and my motivation is somewhat normal, but my mood is low. Seems like a low to middle depression. Nothing seems enjoyable and life is favorless.
Tonight I'll make sure to only run 2 loops as I plan to stick to that amount until the end of September.
