Day 24.
2 loops hybrid track.
Felt euphoria while listening to DMSI.
Today I was around women a lot. Didn't notice any IOI to be honest. Tho there was this woman in the train that was staring at me a lot. But not in a sexual way. I felt she was curious or intrigued. When I looked at her she looked away then resumed staring at me again. Again it wasn't in a sexual way so I don't think it was DMSI. She was more like "Hu, what's with this guy ??".
Today I got aware of one of my fear: I'm afraid of women of another "breed" than me. Or rather, I'd say I'm not afraid anymore of women of my own breed. That's why I notice how intimidating those others women are now.
I'm stopping listening to DMSI today. I have shit that need to be done, NOW. August will be hard for me if I continue DMSI. DMSI is making me procrastinate as fuck. And I'm tired of feeling crap and tired all the the time.
So, after 24 days of DMSI here's what I noticed:
-Slight increase in self-esteem, self-confidenc, ect. Well I felt the goal #2. It's subtle but at least I got something.
-Huge boost in how I perceive my look. I feel very handsome most of the time.
-My stuttering decreased. I had a light to middle stuttering. It's not bothersome tho, but in those 25 days I noticed I'm more fluent. I guess DMSI helped.
-Didn't feel goal #1 and #3.
-My life became a mess because of all the tiredness, low energy, procrastinating and depression that DMSI induced. And I even lost weight. I was already skinny before DMSI but now it's pretty bad.
-Less afraid of women of my own breed. When I think of approaching them for instance I don't feel anxious or shy.
-I appreciated the "I don't care attitude" and the euphoria that I sometimes got under DMSI. Sadly they never last long
-Lost interest in women
-Decrease of my libido
The next time I listen to DMSI for the cleaning I'll make sure I have at least 3 months free of duties and work.
So starting from today I'm going to listen to Ultra Motivation. And I'll add Attract Positive Energy in a few days too. I really need some motivation for August or else I'll fuck up with my life. And I hope APE will help me overcome my depression. I wanted to listen to OF in the first place but I've work that need to be done.
2 loops hybrid track.
Felt euphoria while listening to DMSI.
Today I was around women a lot. Didn't notice any IOI to be honest. Tho there was this woman in the train that was staring at me a lot. But not in a sexual way. I felt she was curious or intrigued. When I looked at her she looked away then resumed staring at me again. Again it wasn't in a sexual way so I don't think it was DMSI. She was more like "Hu, what's with this guy ??".
Today I got aware of one of my fear: I'm afraid of women of another "breed" than me. Or rather, I'd say I'm not afraid anymore of women of my own breed. That's why I notice how intimidating those others women are now.
I'm stopping listening to DMSI today. I have shit that need to be done, NOW. August will be hard for me if I continue DMSI. DMSI is making me procrastinate as fuck. And I'm tired of feeling crap and tired all the the time.
So, after 24 days of DMSI here's what I noticed:
-Slight increase in self-esteem, self-confidenc, ect. Well I felt the goal #2. It's subtle but at least I got something.
-Huge boost in how I perceive my look. I feel very handsome most of the time.
-My stuttering decreased. I had a light to middle stuttering. It's not bothersome tho, but in those 25 days I noticed I'm more fluent. I guess DMSI helped.
-Didn't feel goal #1 and #3.
-My life became a mess because of all the tiredness, low energy, procrastinating and depression that DMSI induced. And I even lost weight. I was already skinny before DMSI but now it's pretty bad.
-Less afraid of women of my own breed. When I think of approaching them for instance I don't feel anxious or shy.
-I appreciated the "I don't care attitude" and the euphoria that I sometimes got under DMSI. Sadly they never last long
-Lost interest in women
-Decrease of my libido
The next time I listen to DMSI for the cleaning I'll make sure I have at least 3 months free of duties and work.
So starting from today I'm going to listen to Ultra Motivation. And I'll add Attract Positive Energy in a few days too. I really need some motivation for August or else I'll fuck up with my life. And I hope APE will help me overcome my depression. I wanted to listen to OF in the first place but I've work that need to be done.
