DMSI 3.2 B Since Feb 28th, 1 Loop per day.
Yesterday was an extremely painful day for me. I thought I had surpassed my weaknesses, however, it came back to haunt me again and I struggled really, really hard to get back up. I realized I still had more work to do to clean up my shit. That feeling sucks, however, it is also a reality I need to tackle.
You know the feeling of being beaten down and mustering all that energy just to pull yourself back up? Well, that was how crap I felt like yesterday. I was emotionally 'hit' by so many attacks from all over the place, I felt all sorts of emotions. Anger was definitely one of them, something I hadn't really had a long time. Then, came some insecurities which were a surprise for me since I thought I nailed them down already. It really sucks when shit hits when you least expect it. Not only does it manifest all sorts of other crap, it gets you really HARD. I had to take a walk by myself just to get my head straight. That feeling... it's hard to explain to you guys in a few sets of words. I can tell you guys that even though I am slowly getting back to where I was, that pain and stress still linger and I don't like it at all. It was so powerful that it 'shook' my confidence. Then, all the unhappy past events that I had put behind me started to crawl in here and there... It was like being in the center of a horror movie.
Not sure if this has anything to do with DMSI 3.2B, didn't really get this on 3.1A, nor had this before listening to subs. I always try to self-reflect on myself and accept my weaknesses and try to improve myself to become an even better person. So what happened to me yesterday was like being on a roller-coaster.
Aside from that, nothing DMSI happened. I did feel some strange sensation surging through me at times, however, I can't say if that is the aura.
Btw, has anybody experiment by listening to 2 loops per day (or more) instead of 1? For some reason, I feel 1 loop per day isn't enough for me. What kind of results did it produce for you guys if you went over the 1?
Will report more soon.
Yesterday was an extremely painful day for me. I thought I had surpassed my weaknesses, however, it came back to haunt me again and I struggled really, really hard to get back up. I realized I still had more work to do to clean up my shit. That feeling sucks, however, it is also a reality I need to tackle.
You know the feeling of being beaten down and mustering all that energy just to pull yourself back up? Well, that was how crap I felt like yesterday. I was emotionally 'hit' by so many attacks from all over the place, I felt all sorts of emotions. Anger was definitely one of them, something I hadn't really had a long time. Then, came some insecurities which were a surprise for me since I thought I nailed them down already. It really sucks when shit hits when you least expect it. Not only does it manifest all sorts of other crap, it gets you really HARD. I had to take a walk by myself just to get my head straight. That feeling... it's hard to explain to you guys in a few sets of words. I can tell you guys that even though I am slowly getting back to where I was, that pain and stress still linger and I don't like it at all. It was so powerful that it 'shook' my confidence. Then, all the unhappy past events that I had put behind me started to crawl in here and there... It was like being in the center of a horror movie.
Not sure if this has anything to do with DMSI 3.2B, didn't really get this on 3.1A, nor had this before listening to subs. I always try to self-reflect on myself and accept my weaknesses and try to improve myself to become an even better person. So what happened to me yesterday was like being on a roller-coaster.
Aside from that, nothing DMSI happened. I did feel some strange sensation surging through me at times, however, I can't say if that is the aura.
Btw, has anybody experiment by listening to 2 loops per day (or more) instead of 1? For some reason, I feel 1 loop per day isn't enough for me. What kind of results did it produce for you guys if you went over the 1?
Will report more soon.
