08-04-2023, 02:47 PM
I finished my fourth cycle last night. Feeling pretty low as I’m writing this for mostly unrelated reasons. Having said that, part of it is feeling a little bit disappointed that I haven’t seen any interest from women yet, and I’m feeling a little fear that DMSI won’t work for me.
Last night, I started exploring the anxiety I feel about seeing results from DMSI, and as one thread led to another, I realised that I have a fear of getting attacked by men who intervene on behalf of women who feel uncomfortable with my attention. I know exactly which childhood experience this stems from. Part of the appeal of DMSI for me is that supposedly women make advances, so I don’t have to worry about showing interest in an woman and having it be unwelcome, but no results in that direction so far.
Despite women showing no interest in me, often ignoring me completely (as usual), there are some positive signs that some parts of DMSI are working that I’ve mentioned before. I just wish there were more positive signs that were less circumstantial, and that DMSI helped me clear the fears and anxieties that I feel.
Last night, I started exploring the anxiety I feel about seeing results from DMSI, and as one thread led to another, I realised that I have a fear of getting attacked by men who intervene on behalf of women who feel uncomfortable with my attention. I know exactly which childhood experience this stems from. Part of the appeal of DMSI for me is that supposedly women make advances, so I don’t have to worry about showing interest in an woman and having it be unwelcome, but no results in that direction so far.
Despite women showing no interest in me, often ignoring me completely (as usual), there are some positive signs that some parts of DMSI are working that I’ve mentioned before. I just wish there were more positive signs that were less circumstantial, and that DMSI helped me clear the fears and anxieties that I feel.