01-25-2020, 11:35 AM
Hi All, (continuing log of DMSI 3.3.2 off-label usage)
Day 8 (continued):
Last night (date night) was wonderful. The sex was especially intense and felt amazing (this usually only happens when there's been an abstention of several days, but this was the fifth time in 7 days, so I think that's saying something.). I believe the part of the sub that is supposed to intensify sexual feelings is definitely working. After sex and before and during dinner, and evening activities I managed to loop DMSI continuously 3 times for her since she hadn't gotten any during the day. Unfortunately, that meant I was further exposed, but did not seem to affect me adversely.
Day 9 (first day of the ASRB2 4-day break)
This am was a tiny bit rough. She woke earlier than she likes and this put her in a bad mood, she woke me earlier than I like and not in the agreed-upon-way (if she's going to wake me it has to be by going down on me). She usually does this warmly, if not enthusiastically, but this am, not only did she not do it, when I reminded her she got all cranky. I don't think this is the sub, I think it may just be the stress of getting ready for vacation, but it IS unusual for a Saturday morning. She did get me off, but in a rather perfunctory, hurried/impatient manner (so a lot less fun than you'd think). She seemed to regret this afterward but said little. She wanted some, but didn't have the patience to warm up and go for it. She does have a lot on her mind, so again, don't think it's the sub, but in the interest of not just reporting the good stuff... there it is.
Still feeling a little energized, though also feeling a little jangly-nerved, not too bad. I'm playing the Alpha BWE track in the background to try to center me and get ready for some creative work.
It will be interesting to see if the 'aura' and 'snipers' are in place enough to make social interactions of the weekend different in any way. I'll keep an eye out, but won't overwhelm my subconscious with 'feeling like something should be different'.
Speaking of my subconscious-- I've felt that my positive self-talk, when something ruffles my feathers for instance-- 'calm down, breathe-- it's not about you it's about them' is MUCH more effective than usual. My thinking about interpersonal interactions in the moment is a bit clearer and on point. Just an initial impression. I'll watch this one too. All-in-all, I definitely feel differently. So far almost entirely positive. I hope the effects continue, especially during the next 4 days. I love the increased libido, greater sense of the people around me, etc. It will also be interesting to see what a break does. There is sort of a self-propulsion about listening to the sub, not doing it leaves a spot I feel like I need to fill. I wonder if this means anything.
There also seems to be benefit in saying to myself when I notice something different--like the sub might be working, "I like this feeling-- I'm opening up to it", "I do believe I AM getting sexier" and similar statements. Another feeling is one in my body of feeling like I really got benefit out of my workout yesterday. The 'pump' is stronger than usual and has persisted longer than normal. I wonder if there are some positive chemical changes prompted by the sub.
No pronounced effects re my wife. I hope she starts to get and appreciate at least a little additional male attention. This would really boost her self-esteem and re-affirm that 'it's not just me-her husband' that thinks she's hot. It would also boost her comfort in taking care of herself, in general.
So far still giving the DMSI 3.3.2 a thumbs up for the reasons I have chosen to use it.
Day 8 (continued):
Last night (date night) was wonderful. The sex was especially intense and felt amazing (this usually only happens when there's been an abstention of several days, but this was the fifth time in 7 days, so I think that's saying something.). I believe the part of the sub that is supposed to intensify sexual feelings is definitely working. After sex and before and during dinner, and evening activities I managed to loop DMSI continuously 3 times for her since she hadn't gotten any during the day. Unfortunately, that meant I was further exposed, but did not seem to affect me adversely.
Day 9 (first day of the ASRB2 4-day break)
This am was a tiny bit rough. She woke earlier than she likes and this put her in a bad mood, she woke me earlier than I like and not in the agreed-upon-way (if she's going to wake me it has to be by going down on me). She usually does this warmly, if not enthusiastically, but this am, not only did she not do it, when I reminded her she got all cranky. I don't think this is the sub, I think it may just be the stress of getting ready for vacation, but it IS unusual for a Saturday morning. She did get me off, but in a rather perfunctory, hurried/impatient manner (so a lot less fun than you'd think). She seemed to regret this afterward but said little. She wanted some, but didn't have the patience to warm up and go for it. She does have a lot on her mind, so again, don't think it's the sub, but in the interest of not just reporting the good stuff... there it is.
Still feeling a little energized, though also feeling a little jangly-nerved, not too bad. I'm playing the Alpha BWE track in the background to try to center me and get ready for some creative work.
It will be interesting to see if the 'aura' and 'snipers' are in place enough to make social interactions of the weekend different in any way. I'll keep an eye out, but won't overwhelm my subconscious with 'feeling like something should be different'.
Speaking of my subconscious-- I've felt that my positive self-talk, when something ruffles my feathers for instance-- 'calm down, breathe-- it's not about you it's about them' is MUCH more effective than usual. My thinking about interpersonal interactions in the moment is a bit clearer and on point. Just an initial impression. I'll watch this one too. All-in-all, I definitely feel differently. So far almost entirely positive. I hope the effects continue, especially during the next 4 days. I love the increased libido, greater sense of the people around me, etc. It will also be interesting to see what a break does. There is sort of a self-propulsion about listening to the sub, not doing it leaves a spot I feel like I need to fill. I wonder if this means anything.
There also seems to be benefit in saying to myself when I notice something different--like the sub might be working, "I like this feeling-- I'm opening up to it", "I do believe I AM getting sexier" and similar statements. Another feeling is one in my body of feeling like I really got benefit out of my workout yesterday. The 'pump' is stronger than usual and has persisted longer than normal. I wonder if there are some positive chemical changes prompted by the sub.
No pronounced effects re my wife. I hope she starts to get and appreciate at least a little additional male attention. This would really boost her self-esteem and re-affirm that 'it's not just me-her husband' that thinks she's hot. It would also boost her comfort in taking care of herself, in general.
So far still giving the DMSI 3.3.2 a thumbs up for the reasons I have chosen to use it.
