I noticed the last two days my rage and sadness emotions that I was feeling (especially when thinking about those two women, especially the first one) has almost gone away.
I don't feel like I want to kill myself anymore, i also don't feel the pain nearly as strong.
I still don't want to think about it and it still causes some negative emotions to arise, but nothing as dramatic and severe as the last few weeks where I felt suicidal when thinking about it and like I wanted to punch something because I had so much rage and sadness inside of me.
Healing and clearing is definitely working.
I feel more hopeful now about my future then I have in a while.[
I don't feel super sad at all anymore, i feel hopeful now.
Yesterday I went the entire day without thinking about the chick (at the end of the day I did a little). a great sign. I'm thinking of her less and less.
i'm on 2 loops btw Hybrid.
I don't feel like I want to kill myself anymore, i also don't feel the pain nearly as strong.
I still don't want to think about it and it still causes some negative emotions to arise, but nothing as dramatic and severe as the last few weeks where I felt suicidal when thinking about it and like I wanted to punch something because I had so much rage and sadness inside of me.
Healing and clearing is definitely working.
I feel more hopeful now about my future then I have in a while.[
I don't feel super sad at all anymore, i feel hopeful now.
Yesterday I went the entire day without thinking about the chick (at the end of the day I did a little). a great sign. I'm thinking of her less and less.
i'm on 2 loops btw Hybrid.
