10-01-2018, 01:47 PM
I keep having these anxiety attacks and I don't know if it's because I'm off 3.2 or 3.3 is hitting me and I'm freaking out. Overall I'm having a bit of trouble functioning lately. I got a task to do at my job today, but didn't know how to go about it. Instead of breaking it down and figuring out the solution, I just felt like I was stuck in an anxious loop. Then I'd calm myself, but as soon as I tried working on it again the anxiety came back. From my time studying the effects of anxiety, it has a tendency to destroy short term memory in the moment. So you literally cannot think straight while dealing with it. I'm hoping things are different tomorrow.
I've been trying to cut these anxiety attacks down but I've realized it's really easy to trigger it for me. The key is to catch it when it first happens, otherwise it builds and before I know it I'm stuck in a loop of anxiety and really need to take time to calm my nervous system again.
I should mention I had another migraine yesterday. During the episode I was just so tired of everything in my life and all the shit that has been stressing me out. How I place too much self worth in how things turn out. I just wanted to let it all go and not give a fuck. Especially my job, I'm sick of feeling anxious and incompetent when I come across something I can't do.
It feels like there's nothing I can do about any of this in the moment. It sucks, but I'm probably just going through a really rough patch of buried insecurities and emotions about myself. It's unfortunate it has to influence me so much, but trying to fight it away or ignore it just causes me more stress.
I've been trying to cut these anxiety attacks down but I've realized it's really easy to trigger it for me. The key is to catch it when it first happens, otherwise it builds and before I know it I'm stuck in a loop of anxiety and really need to take time to calm my nervous system again.
I should mention I had another migraine yesterday. During the episode I was just so tired of everything in my life and all the shit that has been stressing me out. How I place too much self worth in how things turn out. I just wanted to let it all go and not give a fuck. Especially my job, I'm sick of feeling anxious and incompetent when I come across something I can't do.
It feels like there's nothing I can do about any of this in the moment. It sucks, but I'm probably just going through a really rough patch of buried insecurities and emotions about myself. It's unfortunate it has to influence me so much, but trying to fight it away or ignore it just causes me more stress.
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