09-29-2018, 11:05 AM
(09-29-2018, 09:17 AM)RTBoss Wrote: I am prone to that kind of thing, so I always have something to back me up for emergencies - like E2 or PSTEC (ARA probably would have been good here, too). Nothing like getting caught with your emotional pants down in a public space that you can't escape, right? Glad you made it through alright.
Ah yeah, ARA would have been handy then. Didn't really have the foresight to buy that before my trip. I guess to some degree I wanted to challenge myself and see how far I've come dealing with this stuff. In a way it was a sort of field test for myself. Probably doesn't help that every time I get on a plane I worry it's going to crash. It's rare, but then there's that "yeah but what if THIS is the one and I'm unlucky enough to be on it?"
But yeah getting caught with your emotional pants down. It's a double whammy for me. Dealing with the emotions and then having that shame of being a grown adult about to cry over nothing.
But I messed about in my DAW today and just threw something together real quick to capture that nightmare I was talking about and to an extent what I've felt going through all this past week. Just a peek inside the ol' noggin.
https://soundcloud.com/hconscious/nightmares/s-LDVyu
INFP