09-08-2018, 08:56 AM
Damn. I can feel myself wanting to execute this sub and another part is like "wait hold on a sec!" It's like this urge to hide or run. I keep coming up with excuses as to why it's not time yet or why I shouldn't push myself harder to make these changes.
The best way I can describe it is like this. Have you ever locked the door to your house, walked a couple of feet and then had doubts that you locked it? You sort of know that you did, but you still want to check and if you don't it's like this doubt or anxiety that sticks with you.
I find myself sometimes trying to think too much about how to cooperate with this sub vs actually cooperating. Keep revisiting old crap that should be left behind, just in general thinking if I just think hard enough about what's going on I can get the fear to go away. The irony of all this is that if I just executed fully I wouldn't have the fear. But I cause more fear by putting myself in a state of limbo being afraid.
Just in general when my subconscious is backed into a corner and has to execute, I find myself chronically overthinking everything as a way to sort of escape.
The best way I can describe it is like this. Have you ever locked the door to your house, walked a couple of feet and then had doubts that you locked it? You sort of know that you did, but you still want to check and if you don't it's like this doubt or anxiety that sticks with you.
I find myself sometimes trying to think too much about how to cooperate with this sub vs actually cooperating. Keep revisiting old crap that should be left behind, just in general thinking if I just think hard enough about what's going on I can get the fear to go away. The irony of all this is that if I just executed fully I wouldn't have the fear. But I cause more fear by putting myself in a state of limbo being afraid.
Just in general when my subconscious is backed into a corner and has to execute, I find myself chronically overthinking everything as a way to sort of escape.
INFP
