09-01-2018, 11:41 AM
One more post. It's pretty amazing how much DMSI can shift my state out of hopelessness. I drank some coffee this morning, which looking back was a resistance tactic. Of course my mind was like, what's one cup gonna do? Well I got really depressed. Like a confused, I really don't know what the hell to do depressed. When the caffeine finally wore off I found myself encouraging myself to stand back up and keep going for what I want in life. It's too easy to give up on things, to settle, to bargain. But every success story in life has those defining moments where the urge to give up is strong and moving past those is what lets you break free. The hard part is facing those fears because it's like every part of me seems to think it's a bad idea.
And right now I'm not in the clear, I'm still facing a lot of turbulence and fighting for what I want, and sometimes I catch myself asking why it's so hard? But it's like swimming through a sea of self doubt and fear and knowing that there's an end to it somewhere. The important thing is to not stop, otherwise I'll stay in those fears.
And right now I'm not in the clear, I'm still facing a lot of turbulence and fighting for what I want, and sometimes I catch myself asking why it's so hard? But it's like swimming through a sea of self doubt and fear and knowing that there's an end to it somewhere. The important thing is to not stop, otherwise I'll stay in those fears.
INFP
