DMSI 3.2 it's official

[mat422]

Nobody expects amazing sex on the first time. You don't even know what they like. I would not work about performance, only that you take your time, tease and have good foreplay.

Thanks. Yeah there's probably a bunch of ridiculous stuff floating around in my head about sex.

Well, I have never been in date with women and tbh I really don't care about chasing women. (Strange that I am saying.. DMSI?)..

But you and I are same age and skinny also and I totally get what u are saying also how we treat our body like crap but let me tell u if it wasn't for subs.. I would have still be treating my body with crap..

I mean last year I was like one of those guy who would regularly drink Coke and eat KFC and Mc' D but slow and slowly I have lost lost interest in eating those as if I don't even want to even if I wanted to.. I now love eating home cooked meals..The only thing is that I am not working out.

If you really ask me I don't really think a ***** person can change his life in like 3 months.. You can change ur habits in 3 months (as they say) but if u wanna change ur life then u need atleast 2-3 years.. This is just my opinion.. Although I am trying to change my life and thinking since I was 21 but I kept moving and found IML and my healing journey began..

I remember ur post where u said that although u havnt worked on ur external reality u do have worked on ur internal emotions... Man that's the best thing u can do.. Because once u have done that then it won't take much effort to change external reality...

I guess I'm lucky because if I drank coke and ate mcdonalds every day I would get sick. Never could stomach fast food or soda. It's like my body rejected it. But it was equally bad because I just wouldn't eat at all.

Lately I feel like thinking that change takes time is just another limiting belief and a product of fear. I used to be really bad and it did take time to get better. But it's more about finding what works and being efficient vs a long time of brute force tactics. That's pretty much the direction Shannon's subs have gone in anyway which I'm immensely grateful for.

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I'm kind of stumped on how to reach execution. I was listening to dmsi last night and I started doing a body scan for relaxation. I relaxed every part of my body and was mindful of how I felt, the sensations in me, etc. But I had this immense pressure in my chest, it felt like something was trying to escape out of it. My whole body was relaxed except this part of my chest which was filled with tension. It feels like that's where the resistance is located, the defiant uncooperative part. And my stomach is where the deep fears are. It just felt like a block that I couldn't get through. Like I couldn't completely step over into the new life I wanted.

But aside from that it made me realize I have to be much more mindful of how I feel and to be present in my own body. I've developed a nasty habit of dissociating away when I don't want to deal with something. And I've realized that defense mechanism is used on the dmsi script as well. Since being more present I've become tuned into when I try to disconnect from the instructions of DMSI.