07-16-2018, 02:55 PM
Ok, so I might have jumped the gun a bit. I'm still feeling good, but I realized that healing is still important. True if you focus on fear you create more fear. But that doesn't mean if you simply ignore it and pretend it isn't there it will go away. Possibly an escape tactic, my subconscious convincing me that we're "done". When really there's still more that needs to be addressed. This is like someone cheating in a game and saying "look at me, I won!". My subconscious raises the flag that it's time to move on when really it's premature and there is much more to be done. It'll be like, "ok you're still anxious around women, but it's close enough and I think we're done here". Nope, I'm not stopping until these limitations are completely gone. If there's even a hint of anxiety or fear left within me, I know there's still more to be done and there's still an even better reality to live.
There's still most definitely a deep subconscious fear within me. But I'm guiding myself to acknowledge it and clear it. I can feel how throughout the day it wavers in and out between avoidance and pushing forward. Lately the gaps have been getting smaller and the subconscious fears have been closer to consciousness. I feel them as something that can be solved or overcome vs this terrifying thing that I'd constantly hide from.
There's still most definitely a deep subconscious fear within me. But I'm guiding myself to acknowledge it and clear it. I can feel how throughout the day it wavers in and out between avoidance and pushing forward. Lately the gaps have been getting smaller and the subconscious fears have been closer to consciousness. I feel them as something that can be solved or overcome vs this terrifying thing that I'd constantly hide from.
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