06-14-2018, 08:30 AM
(06-14-2018, 04:11 AM)Shannon Wrote:(06-14-2018, 03:45 AM)mat422 Wrote: So I'm definitely making progress, but it really hit me yesterday, the disconnect between what I understand consciously vs subconsciously. This whole not good enough thing. I understand it has no basis, but I still feel it. It's the little things I notice that makes me realize I still operate out of this belief on a sort of instinctual level. The small ways in which it's like I'm still fighting against myself. It's like I force myself to move forward, but then I stop and think how much energy I expend just pushing against a part that is essential me.
The difference now being I don't accept it as the truth. But I feel I still need to acknowledge it and heal from it somehow. Asking why doesn't really seem to help. It's kind of like this part of me is just stuck and hurt and needs encouragement on an empathetic level. But it's really buried in my mind, it gets to the point where I think to myself "am I making this up?" That's how out of touch I am with this piece of myself
But you are making progress, and by the looks of it, DMSI A has you making better progress than you have ever made before, and faster too. Correct me if I am wrong. But it looks to me like it's just a matter of time now. Keep going!
Thanks Shannon. Sometimes it's hard to get a good perspective on what's going on. But within the past few weeks I feel like I've moved from identifying with the pain to seeing it as something that I can move on from. It's a small shift but it feels like the positive is now the truth and the negatives are the delusions. Prior to this it was flipped around.
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