01-18-2018, 05:39 PM
Just a quick thought from today. I've often felt like I was cheating or being inauthentic by running DMSI and becoming more charismatic, social, or likeable. Like I'm manipulating people to get what I want. Like having more women attracted to me is somehow dishonest. That the whole idea of an aura or this reality bending is inherently manipulative and wrong in some way. But then I thought about myself. The hard work I've been putting in with my inner state and how much I deserve this. I shouldn't punish myself for figuring out a better way to live. If people want to stay attached to negative beliefs or limit themselves that's fine, but I won't feel guilty anymore for getting what I want out of life.
I've had this mentality for a while. I remember the first time I bought AM way back and I felt putting statements into my head was somehow artificial, wrong, or inauthentic. I didn't think I could be anything more, so I never allowed myself to. I bargained. I told myself I was being unrealistic and I was who I was and I just needed to make minor improvements, not a complete overhaul of myself. This whole thing has me thinking about self esteem and how it's such an important addition to DMSI. If you never feel good enough about yourself, you'll never feel you deserve the changes you seek. My mind basically said "well I'm worthless anyway so maybe this is all I get out of life and I just need to accept that and stop trying so hard".
It's interesting that I thought for a while this was all fear, but it turns out there's some internal self hatred there mixed in with it. Yet another reason to be careful with how you approach the mind. Sometimes you think you have the solution, but you're blinded from the truth because you want it to be more simplistic than it actually is.
I've had this mentality for a while. I remember the first time I bought AM way back and I felt putting statements into my head was somehow artificial, wrong, or inauthentic. I didn't think I could be anything more, so I never allowed myself to. I bargained. I told myself I was being unrealistic and I was who I was and I just needed to make minor improvements, not a complete overhaul of myself. This whole thing has me thinking about self esteem and how it's such an important addition to DMSI. If you never feel good enough about yourself, you'll never feel you deserve the changes you seek. My mind basically said "well I'm worthless anyway so maybe this is all I get out of life and I just need to accept that and stop trying so hard".
It's interesting that I thought for a while this was all fear, but it turns out there's some internal self hatred there mixed in with it. Yet another reason to be careful with how you approach the mind. Sometimes you think you have the solution, but you're blinded from the truth because you want it to be more simplistic than it actually is.
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