DMSI 3.2 Reporting For Duty

[Shannon]

It's odd that I show so little restraint in the fapping department, given that I'm pretty strong willed in most other matters.

I have a lot of shame around it, to the point where it's difficult even to mention that it's a real thing that I do.

It's not that you don't have a strong will; it's that your strong will is being directed to thwart DMSI to prevent something (some things?) from happening that you fear at some level. It would be just as hard to fail with DMSI as you are finding it to succeed if you were to be firing on all cylinders instead of fighting it.