02-04-2014, 04:21 PM
I've had 3-4 days of very heavy resistance but I can feel the walls starting to crumble and its making way for a clearer mind and a greater inner peace. The last 3-4 days before this I was exhausted, couldn't concentrate, depressed and just felt like hiding away from the world. I was one step away from stopping yesterday.
Today has been quite the contrast I've felt free and happy, a sense that everything is OK in my world. I've started to notice more and more people opening up to me. Strangers which in the past would have scared me have become easy to talk to even people who physically would have intimidated me. I've felt more love for everyone around me and this has lead me to become a nicer person while to being able to set down boundaries and be assertive.
Women have started taking a bit more of an interest as well. Last Weekend there was a few people visiting my flatmates at my house, I had never met them before but I found the girl very easy to talk to even though I found her attractive. In this instance I had not had a single drink, This has never happened before. In the past I would have clammed up and not been able to talk through fear unless I had had a few drinks. This alone is a major breakthrough for me.
Plenty of other experiences happening like this. Like last Saturday night I was out for a stag do and we ended up at a strip club and it was near the end of the night and one of the last strippers was on. I had a couple of dollars left so I went up and gave it to her. She leaned down to kiss me on the check and I lent in and started hooking up with her, she went along with it as well. Afterwards I was a little shocked at what I had done as even on AM I wouldn't have been able to take that bold of an action with a stripper at a strip club. In retrospect I probably should have asked what she was up to after her shift and invited her along with us but oh well.
Plenty more stuff going on but that is about all I have time for right now
Today has been quite the contrast I've felt free and happy, a sense that everything is OK in my world. I've started to notice more and more people opening up to me. Strangers which in the past would have scared me have become easy to talk to even people who physically would have intimidated me. I've felt more love for everyone around me and this has lead me to become a nicer person while to being able to set down boundaries and be assertive.
Women have started taking a bit more of an interest as well. Last Weekend there was a few people visiting my flatmates at my house, I had never met them before but I found the girl very easy to talk to even though I found her attractive. In this instance I had not had a single drink, This has never happened before. In the past I would have clammed up and not been able to talk through fear unless I had had a few drinks. This alone is a major breakthrough for me.
Plenty of other experiences happening like this. Like last Saturday night I was out for a stag do and we ended up at a strip club and it was near the end of the night and one of the last strippers was on. I had a couple of dollars left so I went up and gave it to her. She leaned down to kiss me on the check and I lent in and started hooking up with her, she went along with it as well. Afterwards I was a little shocked at what I had done as even on AM I wouldn't have been able to take that bold of an action with a stripper at a strip club. In retrospect I probably should have asked what she was up to after her shift and invited her along with us but oh well.
Plenty more stuff going on but that is about all I have time for right now
The only person in life that can ever hold you back is yourself. So get out of your own way and start living the life you always dreamed of
