So have switched over to universal detox after having a 30 day break from DMSI.
I mainly bought this one to clear out all the toxic emotions and beliefs. I know I've got a large number that have accumulated over the years, the latest strong one and motivator being loneliness.
Currently on day 2 and will try to post as often as possible but may only be once per week. Physically I have noticed my urine is a really thick yellow color it also smells a lot stronger than usual, I've noticed I am defecating more often than usual (was constipated leading up to starting).
From a mental/emotional standpoint had one of the most intense dreams I've had since AM many years ago. Dreamed about me and my ex going out to dinner, sitting down at a table and then my whole family walking in and us trying to hide under the table. Just to give you an idea of how much my family hate her and how much it scares me them finding out, I joked about hooking up with her a few years back to my brother and he hit me as hard as he could had bruises for a week or so and was pretty heavily winded. The dream felt the most lifelike that I have had in years.
Definitely don't notice the same anxiety at the volume level I'm playing at that I did with DMSI but it's still early days so will see how that goes, did wake up on the other side of the bed to where it was playing though so was most likely trying to escape it.
Being someone who has heavy resistance due to fear and not wanting to lose control I can feel these subs are getting closer and closer to breaking through that for me and I'm hoping by the time 6G comes around it will break through it completely.
EDIT: have had a lot of shit go down in my life lately, one of the girls I slept with during DMSI was at work (bad idea I know) but turned a few people against me at work and have lost a lot of friends during the last while due to moving away, alcoholism, sickness etc so have been very isolated lately, this bought up a lot of emotions that didn't serve me and have shown me that I'm unable to really just be happy on my own and rely a lot on other people for how happy I am in life. These are the beliefs and emotions that I'm hoping to deal with here.
I mainly bought this one to clear out all the toxic emotions and beliefs. I know I've got a large number that have accumulated over the years, the latest strong one and motivator being loneliness.
Currently on day 2 and will try to post as often as possible but may only be once per week. Physically I have noticed my urine is a really thick yellow color it also smells a lot stronger than usual, I've noticed I am defecating more often than usual (was constipated leading up to starting).
From a mental/emotional standpoint had one of the most intense dreams I've had since AM many years ago. Dreamed about me and my ex going out to dinner, sitting down at a table and then my whole family walking in and us trying to hide under the table. Just to give you an idea of how much my family hate her and how much it scares me them finding out, I joked about hooking up with her a few years back to my brother and he hit me as hard as he could had bruises for a week or so and was pretty heavily winded. The dream felt the most lifelike that I have had in years.
Definitely don't notice the same anxiety at the volume level I'm playing at that I did with DMSI but it's still early days so will see how that goes, did wake up on the other side of the bed to where it was playing though so was most likely trying to escape it.
Being someone who has heavy resistance due to fear and not wanting to lose control I can feel these subs are getting closer and closer to breaking through that for me and I'm hoping by the time 6G comes around it will break through it completely.
EDIT: have had a lot of shit go down in my life lately, one of the girls I slept with during DMSI was at work (bad idea I know) but turned a few people against me at work and have lost a lot of friends during the last while due to moving away, alcoholism, sickness etc so have been very isolated lately, this bought up a lot of emotions that didn't serve me and have shown me that I'm unable to really just be happy on my own and rely a lot on other people for how happy I am in life. These are the beliefs and emotions that I'm hoping to deal with here.
The only person in life that can ever hold you back is yourself. So get out of your own way and start living the life you always dreamed of
