Posted this in Shannons Journal discussion, posting this here to check my progress in the future.
Another resistance:
When a girl likes me, I think 'Why now?' and boil up with anger.
The girls that would give me an angry look before are giving me IOIs now and it's pissing me off. I want them to feel like they're not good enough for me, like they used to do to me.
The same people who thought they were too cool for me try begfriend me and it pisses me off. Why now, why not before? P**ss off.
The same girls that would get with another guy right in front me and then flirt with me then go back to their boyfriend in front of my face look at me all teary eyed and upset when they see me. F**k off.
The same guys that used to act like they get all the girls and act all 'cool' can barely look me in the eye and when they speak, tehyre squeaky little pu**ies.
I think some of this sabotages me as opportunity comes to me but I get too angry to take it.
Another resistance:
When a girl likes me, I think 'Why now?' and boil up with anger.
The girls that would give me an angry look before are giving me IOIs now and it's pissing me off. I want them to feel like they're not good enough for me, like they used to do to me.
The same people who thought they were too cool for me try begfriend me and it pisses me off. Why now, why not before? P**ss off.
The same girls that would get with another guy right in front me and then flirt with me then go back to their boyfriend in front of my face look at me all teary eyed and upset when they see me. F**k off.
The same guys that used to act like they get all the girls and act all 'cool' can barely look me in the eye and when they speak, tehyre squeaky little pu**ies.
I think some of this sabotages me as opportunity comes to me but I get too angry to take it.
I am that I am, I will be what I will be.
I am grateful for all that I have. I am humble as I revel in the wonders of power
