DMSI 3.1 and MLS exploration - Ascension to ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)hood

[eternity]

OK so this is really weird. It might be because of the bloom of B, or it might be because I'm clearing a lot of deeply rooted crap.

The oneitis girl turned lovey dovey over the phone, and has been that way all day. She even told me how much more she loves me now that I am being so emotional (told her how much I cried yesterday lol)

Women are showing IOI's beyond the standard IOI's. These IOI are clear and definite signs of intense arousal. One girl I passed by in the hallway. She and I were walking towards each other, and I said hi. She said hi, smiled, and immediately looked down--and it looked like she hid her bottom lip under her top lip as she looked down.

In retrospect to yesterday leading up to today, there was a solid exponential increase in internal results. I believe whats going on is that the clearing is making me more naturally congruent with MYSELF, and is allowing me to align with my inner/higher self. I sense that with enough time on A, I will become the most authentic version of myself, based on the results of the past 36 hours.

Oh yeah and I cried twice today; once while I was in the office and once as I was sitting down writing this.

-_-
Y u gotta do htis

[eternity]

Still got a heavy heart but it's a bit lighter than yesterday. I have been beyond exhausted today. .......

I have been making positive correlations between heat and energy sourcing. I drink almost exclusively hot beverages now. And when I feel like I'm resisting or needing energy, I load up on something hot. I've also been listening to the sub at a volume of 1 notch, which is an insanely low volume but it seems to be my sweet spot for A.

In case anybody is interested in seeing a list of things to look out for as far as whether or not the sub is affecting you. ...



[2/2/2017 10:42:44 AM] Jike: How do you guys know that it is giving you results?

<<< a combination of different things:

1. euphoria,
2. feet buzzing,
3. H drip,
4. splitting headaches,
5. nausea, exhaustion
6. heat
7. changes in the way I think
8. changes in the way i act
9. changes in the way I talk
10. changes in the way I walk
11. increasing IOI's from women
12. increasing IOI's from men (not attraction, but friendliness)
13. positive changes in the behavior of women I know
14. reduced fear
15. reduced anxiety
16. reduced frustration
17. increased zen
18. increased motivation
19. idgaf mentality
20. outcome independence
21. definitive emotional healing

[SargeMaximus]

Still got a heavy heart but it's a bit lighter than yesterday. I have been beyond exhausted today. .......

I have been making positive correlations between heat and energy sourcing. I drink almost exclusively hot beverages now. And when I feel like I'm resisting or needing energy, I load up on something hot. I've also been listening to the sub at a volume of 1 notch, which is an insanely low volume but it seems to be my sweet spot for A.

In case anybody is interested in seeing a list of things to look out for as far as whether or not the sub is affecting you. ...



[2/2/2017 10:42:44 AM] Jike: How do you guys know that it is giving you results?

<<< a combination of different things:

1. euphoria,
2. feet buzzing,
3. H drip,
4. splitting headaches,
5. nausea, exhaustion
6. heat
7. changes in the way I think
8. changes in the way i act
9. changes in the way I talk
10. changes in the way I walk
11. increasing IOI's from women
12. increasing IOI's from men (not attraction, but friendliness)
13. positive changes in the behavior of women I know
14. reduced fear
15. reduced anxiety
16. reduced frustration
17. increased zen
18. increased motivation
19. idgaf mentality
20. outcome independence
21. definitive emotional healing

How is nausea a sign it's working? I thought that was resistance? (I have this a lot tonight. Couldn't even do any approaches because of it)

[eternity]

Nausea of acceptance for me during A is significantly different than nausea during resistance. The nausea is a "sick to my stomach" because of all the emotions being stirred up. I'm starting to think that the emotional shield is protecting us ONLY from consciously perceiving what's going on. But the rest of the mind and body still knows what's going on, just not the conscious mind.

[eternity]

i have a lurking notion telling me to scrap version A and go back to version B. It's that same lurking notion that wants me to be in disbelief that I can be an embodiment of dimsee final.

Nice try SubC, you'll be getting another fat dose of A tonight on hybrid.

[eternity]

Insanely nauseated today. Ugh. I almost threw up.

eternity ☼
I was flirting so hard with this 51 year old lady
She lifted her hair up in a pony tial with her hand, and used the other hand to fan herself
I was like "lol"
Then the guy sitting across from us was like "u hot?"
Chick: I'm 51, it happens. I'm not ashamed of saying it out loud either

Maybe it was the menopause lol

But I think the aura hit the shit out of her too, and she couldn't handle herself. Otherwise she wouldn't have done the holding hair in hand IOI, mixed with other signals that she was attracted. It was good fun, and while we were talking, the nausea was gone. But now that I'm back home, listening to my loops, the nausea is back ;(

[eternity]

Hopelessness and futility strike me, first thing in the morning. I question why I'm running dmsi, when my life is not even close to being ready to have an abundance of women around.

I cant begin to explain how false this notion is. Why am I sabotaging myself? What is it that my SubC is trying so hard to protect? The old me is dying a little bit every day. There can only be so much crap to heal before I begin accepting the script at 100%...... right?!

I just have to weather the storm.

[eternity]

What the fuxk. I feel like dying

It's not suicidal, so much that I wish I was dead rather than feeling what I'm feeling. What's confusing is that it's not even that bad. It's trivial shit going through my mind. It's an extension of the hopelessness.

There better be a damn good reason for this shitty feeling. I'm going to have to force myself out of the house. There are so many festivities today because the super bowl is in my city. But instead I'm back in bed curled up in a ball. Lol

[RTBoss]

Go for a walk someplace you find beautiful or relaxing. I'd be in the car to Galveston to walk along the beach. I find water, especially the ocean, calming. Where would you go?

[eternity]

That means I gotta drive and miss the festivities xD

That does sound like a good idea though. I got my own car on Wednesday so now, making trips like that would be reasonable. I would go to Terry Hershey park, or Huntsville state park. I should give more merit to solo walks. Thanks rtboss

[eternity]

OK so despite not feeling up to socializing, I did it anyway. I went to the AA club in town, where there was a super bowl party. I texted a 42 yr old woman friend and asked if she was going to be there. She said yes. When I get there, she was in the middle of a conversation with two of her girlfriends... when she sees me, she immediately grabs me and hugs me, and tells the 2 other women she was talking to how cute I am....

There was plenty of attraction with her. We talked for a while, one on one, and caught up with each other. I told her I got a car, and she said "you should move in with me!", hoping I would replace the room mate who is moving out soon.
Me: OK I'll move into your room and sleep in your bed! !
Her: what?! NO! !!
Me: hahahaha yeah we haven't gotten there in our relationship just yet.
Her: I know, right? Not yet!

It was light hearted and fun, but at the same time there was a bit of sexual tension there. One of her guy friends ended up coming to the party and I let them have a go at each other, and they sat right behind me in chairs. I sat on the couch to watch the game. This 52 year old lady came with her husband and plopped down and sat next to me. She may be damn near twice my age but she's still hot. Anyway, we end up talking a little bit and introducing ourselves as far as formalities go. We've seen each other around a lot but never formally met. But sparks were flying and she was giving mad IOI's. There were 4 of us on the couch, in this order: me, 52yrold, husband, other lady". We were squished, yes, but her body language displayed attentiveness and attraction towards me. So did our conversations. We had deep ass conversation while watching the game. We ended up looking at each other and talking more often than watching the game on the tv.

Every now and again, the 42 yr old would reach over from behind and hug me, and tell her guy friend how cute I am. I was genuinely confused as to whether she thinks I'm cute like a teddy bear? Or cute like attractive.

52 yr Olds husband was there the whole time, and he didn't really seem to be bothered by what she was doing. If he said anything to her later on, she could probably EASILY use the excuse "he's half my age, how can there be ANYTHING going on between us?!"

My friends generally tend to be much older than I am, anyway, due to the nature of being sober at a much younger age than the average person in recovery. But damn, dimsee. I feel like frosted when he was running the earlier versions, where he was having those grannys. Lol.

Regardless, I don't feel hopeless anymore. But... my heart sank when I read Shannon post about everything about our reality having to shift in order to achieve the goals of the program. I have a general idea of what that is going to look like. It includes my living situation, and the friends I have. Possibly the job I have as well.

So people places and things are gonna shift. And if all that happen at around the same time, it's going to be heavy, since so many decisions will need to be made, in such a short time period.

Well..... all I can say is bring it on, dimsee. Make me cry some more. I'm ready to have my life turned upside down, in a good way

[eternity]

No. Lol. EVERYTHING has to change if I'm to go from my reality to a reality where women are seducing me on the regular and taking me to bed.

[eternity]

I cried again today. I'm so physically and emotionally exhausted. I don't think it's just your average clearing anymore. I think it's gotten to the point where I'm being smashed with a sledgehammer repeatedly and without remorse or regard for how it's affecting me.

I knew 3.0.1 was supposed to mess with time before it released. About a week before it released, I was experiencing dimsee style results... before I had even had the program, before I ever listened to it. I didn't think to report it because I thought it was a one off.

But I'm feeling very similarly now. 3.1 hasn't even been built yet, and I already feel it starting to take its place in my life. It's mind blowing o.o

[Bookstacks DC737]

Yeah I was thinking along the same lines, thought it had to just be placebo or the power of belief. But if we're running Reality Bending Subliminals maybe it's not so far fetched. Sometimes the power of expectation can do that too, I'm not at all sure what's going on, but I quite like it