02-07-2017, 10:30 AM
Who would have thought. .. "beta game" (I'm gonna call it authenticity from now on) actually serves me well. PUA to me is nothing more than indoctrinating myself with someone else's belief systems. I'm sitting here trying to develop my own belief systems through dmsi, but I end up spoiling it by putting more crap into me. I have enough faulty programming in me as it is. Adopting another's archetype as my own leaves a lot of loose ends that don't get acknowledged.
So that has been an ego crushing realization. All the time and energy I spent indoctrinating myself into what I thought I wanted to be like has been in vain. The truth is that I am an emotive and expressive man. Attempts to be anything but that just leads to fueling irrational GSF complexes.
That may well be a huge reason I have been crying; everything I thought I knew about myself got smashed. The [eternity] underneath the mountains of bullshit masks is actually a very sexually attractive gentleman. A smooth operator, so to speak. I didn't need to ADD to myself. I needed to subtract bullsh** that I didn't know I had. 3.0.1a is a boon in that regard.
Authenticity is key. To thine ownself be true. It really helps to understand my MBTI personality type. As an ENFP, it would be futile to want to become an ESTJ traditional alpha type. Alpha for me looks like nothing but pure self mastery, hence Transcendent alpha is by far the superior term for describing a self actualized self.
I'm so glad I didn't cave into stopping version A again. Getting past the feelings of hopelessness has resulted in a deeper understanding of myself, and what it's going to take to align with the goals of dimsee.
So that has been an ego crushing realization. All the time and energy I spent indoctrinating myself into what I thought I wanted to be like has been in vain. The truth is that I am an emotive and expressive man. Attempts to be anything but that just leads to fueling irrational GSF complexes.
That may well be a huge reason I have been crying; everything I thought I knew about myself got smashed. The [eternity] underneath the mountains of bullshit masks is actually a very sexually attractive gentleman. A smooth operator, so to speak. I didn't need to ADD to myself. I needed to subtract bullsh** that I didn't know I had. 3.0.1a is a boon in that regard.
Authenticity is key. To thine ownself be true. It really helps to understand my MBTI personality type. As an ENFP, it would be futile to want to become an ESTJ traditional alpha type. Alpha for me looks like nothing but pure self mastery, hence Transcendent alpha is by far the superior term for describing a self actualized self.
I'm so glad I didn't cave into stopping version A again. Getting past the feelings of hopelessness has resulted in a deeper understanding of myself, and what it's going to take to align with the goals of dimsee.