DMSI

[Shannon]

I chose this goal set because I knew that it would be one of the two most difficult I could choose, and the only one that people would be interested enough in using to stick with it.

A lot of people, for a long time, have been telling me that it is too ambitious to actually do. But then, they also told me that there is no such thing as an aura and therefore you can't do anything with it. We have since proved that wrong many times over, even though DMSI.

The issue that we have left to overcome isn't that this isn't possible. It's a combination of fear of the user executing and actually getting the goal, and fear on the part of the affected to go against society.

The only thing we really have left to do is overcome the root of the issue, which is fear.

I already know how to make the affected respond a LOT more and more obviously than they do, and they do a lot more on 3.3.2 than they did before. And I have a pretty good idea how to improve FRM 4.9. It's not going to be easy, taking it from 4.8 to 4.9, but I'm generally aware of how. I just need the time and resources.

If this wasn't possible, that would have become abundantly clear years ago. It is possible. The biggest thing you have to worry about concerning DMSI isn't that it's not possible, or that I can't do it; it's that I get too tired of hearing nothing but "It doesn't work" and decide, "Fuck it. I'm done."

I am not far off that point right now. And as a result, it may be a while before I build the next version. Either I'm going to focus on DMSI while we go through this cycle of BS (because it's not going to surprise anyone if it fails again during a period of time when everything seems to be going wrong for me), or I'm going to put it down and wait for more favorable circumstances (because I just am so sick and tired of working on it, and getting next to nothing back in the way of "it works!" apparently because no matter what, it hasn't been enough to kill the fear of getting laid). I haven't decided which one is the better choice right now. Planning to look into that with the models soon.

But I will tell you this. I am sick to fucking death of DMSI. I am sick to death of having nothing but people reporting failure. I am sick to death of knowing what the problem is and never being able to fix it because I either don't have enough time, or enough knowledge yet, or both.

Before I work on it again, though, I will have to develop FRM 4.9 at least. And that is at least weeks away. So we shall see. But again, it's not that it's too ambitious, or it can't be done, or I can't do it. It's that I still haven't finished the FRM and I still need to make the affected respond more and more obviously. The biggest issue with that is what society trains women to think is "obvious" compared to men. It obviously already works for that (when the user executes), but the results that produces are only "female obvious", not "male obvious".

For example, getting your ass grabbed by a woman and having her stare is "female obvious" for "Let's fuck." But "male obvious" is walking up to him and saying, "Let's fuck."

We're really not far off at this point, but I'm tired of it. I'm also tired of trying to figure out the FRM and having some "gotcha" every damned time, no matter what I try. I'm tired of how much shit is going wrong for me all the time. I'm tired of having to fight so hard to get anything useful out of the models. I'm tired of being too sick and tired and busy taking care of my sick girlfriend to get anything accomplished. I'm tired of the family upheaval and bullshit and politics this cycle brings, and the financial bullshit going on, and a lot of other things.

So we shall see. It's getting to be more and more tempting to just start mining the Beast program and say screw it. Because with years on end of this same shit, I'm getting to the point right now that I just don't give a fuck if DMSI works anymore. I need to do something else, think about something else, care about something else. I have been sick of it for a long time now, actually.

But I also know that when this cycle ends, we will have some sort of breakthrough in 2020 that makes it possible for me to make it work a LOT better than it works right now. So I don't give up on it. But even if I shut it down right now, it has accomplished it's real goal. You see, the real goal of DMSI was never to just achieve the program goals. The real goal was to give me a target to chase that was so lofty and so difficult that even if I gave up before I accomplished it, it would still result in a much better skeleton script than I would have developed otherwise. We have already accomplished that goal. So now I just need to have circumstances where the models work consistently, and everything I do is not the wrong thing, or meets with failure because of some stupid cycle. And I know this cycle will end in 2020. After which a positive cycle will take the stage and we will see some really good stuff happen.

As much as I want to just throw in the towel on DMSI, because I know what I just told you about, I will not. But I may or may not work on it in the next 4 to 6 months for the same reason. We shall see.