Day 7
Lots of mental fog, socially challenged in the form of fear being depressed overal. When out everything seems more 'distant' and colorfull like having a slight post sex vibe. Very much challenged at all and having a slight edge in terms of auric field. People tend to sense it as a form of rolling alone on the highway. Really want my social skills to go back up and flow with it all.
Dick vibrstions along with intent. Strong fucking powerfull presence. C/F slowly returns in being unbound and attached. Playfull banter. In ways I feel letting go of the girl but this is inner stuff aswell. I own and dominate her. I just feel like giving up/bailing out at this point and going n/c. Lack of neediness or fear? Idk.
Strongly seeing the light in funny playing and NGAF as an internal confidence and essence. I'll roll with AOS, its growing on me. The inner changes are strong. Its like I have a lack of will and empathy, straight up to the close which is easy as fuck and what not, yet at the same time I have the initial thoughts going round when we met at the last stage of AM6. There is nothing to fear nor lose, yet its like a massive hangup to me. Some thoughts playing round aswell. Closed of with her. This is the basic communication I have issues with. Neediness, friendzone crap. If only blazing through in disconnected fashion would be that, it would be key. Its a battle and im catching up as of now. No excuses i really do see the light now. Initiation is the male role, messing around, honest intent, showing 0 holdbacks. My will seem to increases, my purpose solidifies as of now including awareness yet not in a "have to" but rather in a playfull compulsion and knowing/understanding.
Like foodchain/buffet/predator mode and being the 1%
Freeblazing is where its at. Also owning it and my shit. Self acceptance and surrender. Like closing of a chapter.
Lots of mental fog, socially challenged in the form of fear being depressed overal. When out everything seems more 'distant' and colorfull like having a slight post sex vibe. Very much challenged at all and having a slight edge in terms of auric field. People tend to sense it as a form of rolling alone on the highway. Really want my social skills to go back up and flow with it all.
Dick vibrstions along with intent. Strong fucking powerfull presence. C/F slowly returns in being unbound and attached. Playfull banter. In ways I feel letting go of the girl but this is inner stuff aswell. I own and dominate her. I just feel like giving up/bailing out at this point and going n/c. Lack of neediness or fear? Idk.
Strongly seeing the light in funny playing and NGAF as an internal confidence and essence. I'll roll with AOS, its growing on me. The inner changes are strong. Its like I have a lack of will and empathy, straight up to the close which is easy as fuck and what not, yet at the same time I have the initial thoughts going round when we met at the last stage of AM6. There is nothing to fear nor lose, yet its like a massive hangup to me. Some thoughts playing round aswell. Closed of with her. This is the basic communication I have issues with. Neediness, friendzone crap. If only blazing through in disconnected fashion would be that, it would be key. Its a battle and im catching up as of now. No excuses i really do see the light now. Initiation is the male role, messing around, honest intent, showing 0 holdbacks. My will seem to increases, my purpose solidifies as of now including awareness yet not in a "have to" but rather in a playfull compulsion and knowing/understanding.
Like foodchain/buffet/predator mode and being the 1%
Freeblazing is where its at. Also owning it and my shit. Self acceptance and surrender. Like closing of a chapter.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
