Day 6
Anxiety, panic and strong hangover mindfog. Fell almost asleep.
Am thinking about how far I can go in being sexually agressive, entitled and dominant. Will be a nice experiment. In ways I feel that its all background stuff. I want to go full blown intent as of now. To much caring, to less playing. Its a open field. Fuck morals. Use whatever works for me. Having arranged a date for today but the communication is just down right off. Bring on the abundance. Never give over frame.
Been thinking about investment again. As I remember the NGAF and flowing, I miss something about it now. Why goes my mind in overdrive and shutdown. Its not to high standards as I realize now, rather something internal being dealt with. Like, I can pull it off and again. If surrendering it all goes to hell. Set frame, control, guide and close. Always be closing and not giving a f#ck.
The steps are downright easy. I now understand the non-logics to it. The more primal one that impregnates her mind and eventually all. To much side shit is counter productive to me. I feel downright direct in this. Seems to be rejection issues. To liberate and release this will set me free. Its like a part of me keeps it so safe as a defense mechanism. "You can play it normal" its f#cking retarded.
Anxiety, panic and strong hangover mindfog. Fell almost asleep.
Am thinking about how far I can go in being sexually agressive, entitled and dominant. Will be a nice experiment. In ways I feel that its all background stuff. I want to go full blown intent as of now. To much caring, to less playing. Its a open field. Fuck morals. Use whatever works for me. Having arranged a date for today but the communication is just down right off. Bring on the abundance. Never give over frame.
Been thinking about investment again. As I remember the NGAF and flowing, I miss something about it now. Why goes my mind in overdrive and shutdown. Its not to high standards as I realize now, rather something internal being dealt with. Like, I can pull it off and again. If surrendering it all goes to hell. Set frame, control, guide and close. Always be closing and not giving a f#ck.
The steps are downright easy. I now understand the non-logics to it. The more primal one that impregnates her mind and eventually all. To much side shit is counter productive to me. I feel downright direct in this. Seems to be rejection issues. To liberate and release this will set me free. Its like a part of me keeps it so safe as a defense mechanism. "You can play it normal" its f#cking retarded.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
