12-11-2022, 07:40 PM
Day 134 / 210,
The last few days I've experienced a certain amount of social freedom that I hadn't experienced before.
Over the last few days, I applied a yes-mentality towards social offers being made toward me, which helped me expand myself a bit.
I attended:
- A social dinner, Xmas related, with my new job/company (this one was more or less mandatory)
- A potluck with a gym I visit. I'm usually professional about it, but the jokes were flowing out of me; I was comfortable with them, with very little alcohol from my part.
- Watched some UFC fights with a few people from my gym, and one of the guy's house.
- Went to the bar to intercept a woman that I hook up with. Felt comfortable enough at the bar itself, and I eventually took her back to my place. Once I chatted with her, I just felt comfortable and free.
- Some target practice on Sunday. Someone from my company took me out of town and let me use their gun.
The only time I felt uncomfortable was when I entered the bar, and I didn't know anyone. Some women turned to look at me (I've been packing on some muscle) and I was feeling the pressure. Getting uncomfortable from the dynamic.
I've been taking notes about flirting during the day, when I hear or see something that could work in a conversation. It's not an issue for me to do it once I've gotten the ball rolling, and when I know the woman likes me. My issue is in piercing the surface layer, breaking through to them without doing or saying something stupid or ridiculous.
I also attempted to chat up a complete hottie at the gym today, who used to work at the gym, but is now just an attendee. She gave one word, disinterested answers, and I had 2 or 3 brief exchanges, then bailed because it wouldn't have gone anywhere. My question was more of an observation, like "didn't you work here? I've only seen you come here, etc." There were actually a lot of really hot women at the gym today, but they all touched base with some guy, and then they would work out together; I assume that they're dating. I'm done taking negative social risks at my gym, as I've done my fair share of those.
So yes, absolutely running DMSI by the time this month's subscription is through.
My sense is that my current issues have to do with self esteem, self-confidence, my relationships with other people, and how 'deep' and intense I'm willing to go with people. It has to do with self comfort.
Furthermore, my main 'fears' - perhaps uncertainties at this point - have to do with sex/relationships and money, which would be resolved directly from DMSI and UMS.
However, I'm pleased with how I've unlocked a 'deeper layer' in unlocking my fears.
The last few days I've experienced a certain amount of social freedom that I hadn't experienced before.
Over the last few days, I applied a yes-mentality towards social offers being made toward me, which helped me expand myself a bit.
I attended:
- A social dinner, Xmas related, with my new job/company (this one was more or less mandatory)
- A potluck with a gym I visit. I'm usually professional about it, but the jokes were flowing out of me; I was comfortable with them, with very little alcohol from my part.
- Watched some UFC fights with a few people from my gym, and one of the guy's house.
- Went to the bar to intercept a woman that I hook up with. Felt comfortable enough at the bar itself, and I eventually took her back to my place. Once I chatted with her, I just felt comfortable and free.
- Some target practice on Sunday. Someone from my company took me out of town and let me use their gun.
The only time I felt uncomfortable was when I entered the bar, and I didn't know anyone. Some women turned to look at me (I've been packing on some muscle) and I was feeling the pressure. Getting uncomfortable from the dynamic.
I've been taking notes about flirting during the day, when I hear or see something that could work in a conversation. It's not an issue for me to do it once I've gotten the ball rolling, and when I know the woman likes me. My issue is in piercing the surface layer, breaking through to them without doing or saying something stupid or ridiculous.
I also attempted to chat up a complete hottie at the gym today, who used to work at the gym, but is now just an attendee. She gave one word, disinterested answers, and I had 2 or 3 brief exchanges, then bailed because it wouldn't have gone anywhere. My question was more of an observation, like "didn't you work here? I've only seen you come here, etc." There were actually a lot of really hot women at the gym today, but they all touched base with some guy, and then they would work out together; I assume that they're dating. I'm done taking negative social risks at my gym, as I've done my fair share of those.
So yes, absolutely running DMSI by the time this month's subscription is through.
My sense is that my current issues have to do with self esteem, self-confidence, my relationships with other people, and how 'deep' and intense I'm willing to go with people. It has to do with self comfort.
Furthermore, my main 'fears' - perhaps uncertainties at this point - have to do with sex/relationships and money, which would be resolved directly from DMSI and UMS.
However, I'm pleased with how I've unlocked a 'deeper layer' in unlocking my fears.
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