Concious and Unconcious effort journal

[batman]

its been a while since i post my journal, i havent been posting a lot since im just to lazy with my life. i think stage 3 is the worst of alpha male 2011. my anxiety level are too high, you guys know how it is right with this subs. one day you feel like a million bucks, but feeling like a freak the day after. its amazing though, i never thought that i would feel anxiety this much on a daily basis in my life. like most of the others around here, the thought of stopping subs are popping in my head many times. i felt lonely right now, i felt like i had no friends at all, i only felt alive when i am at work, and i only comfortable with people that i knew. last night i come to this gathering in my new office, and i felt like i dont belong there. oh well, its just one of those days right.