For me if I was making an AP code, I would make it so like half of the day you are full-alpha (or full power) and then the rest at half-power, that way its like a trial and you know it works... or something like that. Maybe for 1 hour...
***D*A*Y**6**R*E*P*O*R*T
11/21/14...
I did want to write this in the morning how-ever I was caught up in many things to do.
First of ULTRASONICS when sleeping are the shiznit. Seriously. Forget the water ones.
Running at 125% through laptop and then 30% speakers works well for me. Ill tell you why.
I had the freakiest dream.
Think Kangaroo Jack WITH The Walking Dead and Shark Tornado... haha
I had zombie dream in which Kangaroos where going around killing everyone. Bodies everywhere and I was literally the only one alive (I saw one other dude). Very graphic, bloody, and if I had smells in the dream... the stench of dead corpses.
Yeah...
So like im hiding out and literally zombie kangaroos are eating peoples faces and heads off...
Needless to say I woke up- not wanting to go back to bed and scared shitless from wanting to use the toilet only 15ft away. Took me about 10 mins to calm down and just do it. Not like I was going to piss in my bed. Hell no.
(I cant remember when I was this freaked out... It has at least been 2-5 years if not more- maybe Halloween back in 12' but I was not that scared :x )
Later on, went to my sisters thanksgiving party. Was nice, was also wearing WOLF which is a "cool-guy" type pheromone. Works well if your in the right state.
I felt good- for awhile anyway. Their was a cut girl there, she didnt pay much attention to me at first- then a little bit more.
I felt like us "guys" were competing for her attention in some way. I noticed this quickly- yet I couldn't shut down the almost- neediness factor.
Its like I need a girl on my arm, to have sex with me to feel good about myself. Pathetic I know. I want to be a man and not give one iota. haha I wonder if I was that way, would I have had more attention...?
Went to Wal-Mart. This is in Reno, NV.
I want to say its the home of the Beta Male. Literally guys going there just to pick up toiletries because they have-to (living in moms basement). Saw a dude about 50s, overweight in sweats trying to chat up one of the sales associates. yuck. Not to mention the checkout was so damn slow...
yeah. I almost see myself in a different light now. Maybe not, but I notice my surroundings a bit better I think. I haven't even used AM6 yet. I wonder what that will do for me.
On the way home, I was literally driving 85. Didn't give a shit. Cant explain it either.
I drive a ret. Police Cruiser. Its funny when I think about it. It is probably one of the most manly cars that ever existed in my opinion. I feel powerful when driving it. Feel like a bad-ass when I walk out of it too.
People move out of the way when I drive, they slow down etc. Talk about societal programming. If you see a Crown Victoria you immediately think: COP! Its just... I notice that this is just one of the MANY MANY ways society has fudged us men/women up. If you were living under a rock most of your life- you would still be better off than 90% people out there it seems.
I think theirs a small sliver of Alpha Male in me already.
Also I think the other night I finally accepted myself for what-ever sexuality I may have in me. Im warped to some extent. I love myself. (NOW that I think about it- these subs do work! That is one of the topics for EPRAH- love yourself!) For me that releases tension. I think the big thing is not subscribing to labels.
(I suggested Label removal as a possible sub. Comment if interested in the other forum)
Been thinking about AM6 after 32 days of this. I heard I could do 64 days per stage. I'm considering that way instead of 32 then another 32.
Anyone know the script for it?
Thanks!
***D*A*Y**6**R*E*P*O*R*T
11/21/14...
I did want to write this in the morning how-ever I was caught up in many things to do.
First of ULTRASONICS when sleeping are the shiznit. Seriously. Forget the water ones.
Running at 125% through laptop and then 30% speakers works well for me. Ill tell you why.
I had the freakiest dream.
Think Kangaroo Jack WITH The Walking Dead and Shark Tornado... haha
I had zombie dream in which Kangaroos where going around killing everyone. Bodies everywhere and I was literally the only one alive (I saw one other dude). Very graphic, bloody, and if I had smells in the dream... the stench of dead corpses.
Yeah...
So like im hiding out and literally zombie kangaroos are eating peoples faces and heads off...
Needless to say I woke up- not wanting to go back to bed and scared shitless from wanting to use the toilet only 15ft away. Took me about 10 mins to calm down and just do it. Not like I was going to piss in my bed. Hell no.
(I cant remember when I was this freaked out... It has at least been 2-5 years if not more- maybe Halloween back in 12' but I was not that scared :x )
Later on, went to my sisters thanksgiving party. Was nice, was also wearing WOLF which is a "cool-guy" type pheromone. Works well if your in the right state.
I felt good- for awhile anyway. Their was a cut girl there, she didnt pay much attention to me at first- then a little bit more.
I felt like us "guys" were competing for her attention in some way. I noticed this quickly- yet I couldn't shut down the almost- neediness factor.
Its like I need a girl on my arm, to have sex with me to feel good about myself. Pathetic I know. I want to be a man and not give one iota. haha I wonder if I was that way, would I have had more attention...?
Went to Wal-Mart. This is in Reno, NV.
I want to say its the home of the Beta Male. Literally guys going there just to pick up toiletries because they have-to (living in moms basement). Saw a dude about 50s, overweight in sweats trying to chat up one of the sales associates. yuck. Not to mention the checkout was so damn slow...
yeah. I almost see myself in a different light now. Maybe not, but I notice my surroundings a bit better I think. I haven't even used AM6 yet. I wonder what that will do for me.
On the way home, I was literally driving 85. Didn't give a shit. Cant explain it either.
I drive a ret. Police Cruiser. Its funny when I think about it. It is probably one of the most manly cars that ever existed in my opinion. I feel powerful when driving it. Feel like a bad-ass when I walk out of it too.
People move out of the way when I drive, they slow down etc. Talk about societal programming. If you see a Crown Victoria you immediately think: COP! Its just... I notice that this is just one of the MANY MANY ways society has fudged us men/women up. If you were living under a rock most of your life- you would still be better off than 90% people out there it seems.
I think theirs a small sliver of Alpha Male in me already.
Also I think the other night I finally accepted myself for what-ever sexuality I may have in me. Im warped to some extent. I love myself. (NOW that I think about it- these subs do work! That is one of the topics for EPRAH- love yourself!) For me that releases tension. I think the big thing is not subscribing to labels.
(I suggested Label removal as a possible sub. Comment if interested in the other forum)
Been thinking about AM6 after 32 days of this. I heard I could do 64 days per stage. I'm considering that way instead of 32 then another 32.
Anyone know the script for it?
Thanks!
