11-19-2014, 08:24 PM
Update: I think so far has been 4 days. I believe I have got around 8hrs+ consistently.
I noticed I become more agitated with myself, I have had a couple spouts of depression in relating to women. I feel like I am not good enough or that my neediness will show through.
I wanted to ask what is Tapping? How do I use this? If their were any ways I could increase my gains from subliminals- affirmations? visualizations?
I had one weird dream on the 2nd day, something about religion and that I was going to go to hell. In a way that was holding me back- after I had that dream I don't feel held back by it anymore.
I want to point out that I recently moved to a new area- I am 24 living with my mother-stepfather who are very religious. I don't mind prayers, but I DO mind the negativity at the dinner table.
I always feel like they portray themselves as victims. They talk about corrupt politicians- this and that. I say if you want to change "Do something about it"- and then excuses follow. If your rich your probably evil (I forget who on this forum but he said something to the effect: Christians have a belief that being poor is something that is looked upon as good).
I see my family struggle. I see my mother drive 30-40mins to work everyday just to earn a paycheck that is less than mine- and she likes it. I feel surrounded by victims and its annoying and sad to me.
I want so much more.
I think that one of my limiting beliefs is, I am afraid of success because it would somehow change me.
I know that I am an attractive man, a charismatic man.
Its funny/weird what I am about to say:
I don't smoke much anymore (420)- when I do, I usually see myself (where I am- where I think I am headed) in a WHOLE different view. My internal-talk is much more optimistic, in the sense that its like I understand what needs to happen (because in my mind- I get the perspective of the areal view) in my life. I understand that success (wealth) is only a small part of the pie; that I need to change as a man.
I feel like I am a very Charismatic leader. That I can sway people with my words with my actions. And yet, that part of me feels locked-up, opened up only on super-rare occasions. I want to be free. (I remember one of the best feelings of my life I ever had- I was at a 4th of July parade when I was 18. I saw so many attractive women that I wanted to approach- to say something! I got the courage to do it, even to just say something nice and then bail. After that first approach I felt... unreal. I was on top of the world. I was invincible. The high I had from it was amazing- that I ended up approaching 9 other women with no-fear whatsoever).
I think I am like most people- afraid. Spending 1/2 our energy trying to get forward, and the other 1/2 fighting it. Getting nowhere.
Afraid of what might happen. Comfortable. The thing is, I want to feel Comfortable at not being comfortable. I want to be bold, daring.
Would AM be good for me? Would it bring out the Charismatic Leader in me?
Right now Im plugging away at EPRAH. I want to do 30 days at-least.
I know I can achieve great success... somehow.
I noticed I become more agitated with myself, I have had a couple spouts of depression in relating to women. I feel like I am not good enough or that my neediness will show through.
I wanted to ask what is Tapping? How do I use this? If their were any ways I could increase my gains from subliminals- affirmations? visualizations?
I had one weird dream on the 2nd day, something about religion and that I was going to go to hell. In a way that was holding me back- after I had that dream I don't feel held back by it anymore.
I want to point out that I recently moved to a new area- I am 24 living with my mother-stepfather who are very religious. I don't mind prayers, but I DO mind the negativity at the dinner table.
I always feel like they portray themselves as victims. They talk about corrupt politicians- this and that. I say if you want to change "Do something about it"- and then excuses follow. If your rich your probably evil (I forget who on this forum but he said something to the effect: Christians have a belief that being poor is something that is looked upon as good).
I see my family struggle. I see my mother drive 30-40mins to work everyday just to earn a paycheck that is less than mine- and she likes it. I feel surrounded by victims and its annoying and sad to me.
I want so much more.
I think that one of my limiting beliefs is, I am afraid of success because it would somehow change me.
I know that I am an attractive man, a charismatic man.
Its funny/weird what I am about to say:
I don't smoke much anymore (420)- when I do, I usually see myself (where I am- where I think I am headed) in a WHOLE different view. My internal-talk is much more optimistic, in the sense that its like I understand what needs to happen (because in my mind- I get the perspective of the areal view) in my life. I understand that success (wealth) is only a small part of the pie; that I need to change as a man.
I feel like I am a very Charismatic leader. That I can sway people with my words with my actions. And yet, that part of me feels locked-up, opened up only on super-rare occasions. I want to be free. (I remember one of the best feelings of my life I ever had- I was at a 4th of July parade when I was 18. I saw so many attractive women that I wanted to approach- to say something! I got the courage to do it, even to just say something nice and then bail. After that first approach I felt... unreal. I was on top of the world. I was invincible. The high I had from it was amazing- that I ended up approaching 9 other women with no-fear whatsoever).
I think I am like most people- afraid. Spending 1/2 our energy trying to get forward, and the other 1/2 fighting it. Getting nowhere.
Afraid of what might happen. Comfortable. The thing is, I want to feel Comfortable at not being comfortable. I want to be bold, daring.
Would AM be good for me? Would it bring out the Charismatic Leader in me?
Right now Im plugging away at EPRAH. I want to do 30 days at-least.
I know I can achieve great success... somehow.
