Had a visit from Mr. Masturbation recently and I tell you what, he is not my friend, despite finding the best website ever after jbgallery got deleted off the webs. Feeling so fatigued, music doesn't even sound good, nothing makes sense, mental prowess low, just want to sleep off the rest of UD. Sleep, sleep, sleep. My nervous system can't take more of that.
Today I went to town and didn't see as much white trash, which is a relief, because I live near some very white trash areas. Maybe UD is clearing that from my reality, too. I did see a really stunning tall Russian girl in the store, who kept doing double takes and came back to my aisle. I was too fatigued to say anything, then again I never say much to female strangers, for what reason
? But damn. I knew she was from one of the Orthodox Russian families that live nearby, since I used to text a younger girl from that community. She was dressed like a total whore, though, in really thin leggings/tight skirt. I wanted to have grabbed her ass if my hands weren't full, so instead I just sighed as I went by. I knew she was Russian because she was graceful and feminine with long hair and dressed more like a high class whore, not a hick. Then I realized that she was with her babushka wearing a headscarf and that confirmed it. Russian girls turn into babushkas real fast if they aren't careful... Damnit, I would like to infiltrate that group of Orthodox virginal Russian *****s, but right now don't have the energy nor inclination.What else was I going to talk about... Oh yeah I'm thinking about buying another luxury car, that might give me some drive and motivation to get out more into the world. Then again I owned an excellent luxury car and never got laid because of it, even when I used to chauffeur my friends and plenty of girls around in it during AM6 days. I've always pretty much turned my nose up at chicks and/or never had the balls to make moves. Guess I need to get more desperate, more aggressive, and more... Eh... More sleep is more like it.
And I still haven't even cleaned my house. Wtf, UD? Am I going to have to hire some Russian peasant girl to do that? Fuck that, my motivation is shot.
