Black Bruce Wayne / Tan Tony Stark - Reshaping Life on DMSI v2.5

[Benjamin]

I remember why I switched.

There's something in v2.4 / v2.5 that absolutely terrifies my subconscious and I'm resisting the living **** out of it. I can literally feel the resistance in my head, it's centered in the back, where the neck connects to the head.

The best way I can describe the sensation is this: Imagine hitting the gas and the brakes of your car at the exact same time, and the engine is revving up to the red line, shaking the car. That's what I FEEL like. There's this pushy, pushy motivation that's there, but just can't seem to win.

I feel worn out, insanely fatigued -- I've thrown massive amounts of caffeine, noopept and adrafinil at this fatigue and I just can't get any energy today. I also found myself reading The Red Pill and the more hateful stuff in the manosphere, almost like I'm looking for excuses to remain distrustful of women.

So... the circle is complete. I ran from whatever's causing this resistance, but I need to plow through somehow. I'm debating if I should listen to one or two more loops to try and quickly drill through this. I know it'll suck and it'll hurt, but I REALLY don't wanna feel like this for the next two weeks.

Funny that I had similar with E2 and though I know this so well and can identify it in others easily, it's still hard to see in myself.

But after taking time off it's obvious I was running away from something that I was really scared of. I fought it for a while and it seemed to relax for a bit but then got more intense and in the end I convinced myself that it was okay to go onto DMSI.