02-18-2015, 07:52 PM
Stage 1 Day 39 2/18/14
Moving on to the next stage tonight.
This stage was pretty subtle to me.The drive to do different things were almost natural but sometimes it is very sudden.
-Recently I had the drive to make some cash on the side. When I started to implement a plan to make more money I had a lot of resistance because I feared the worst thing would happen but it didn't.
-Started to get care more about hygiene. I'm taking steps to being cleaner and smell good. Revisited my small cologne collection consistently instead of having it collect dust.
- Trying to improve my physical appearance by buying better looking clothing. I wear business casual most of the time so I decided to build on to that with a blazer. I don't think I can wear it everyday in a high school setting. Any thoughts?
This stage hasn't been all that smooth either because it has been uncovering some emotional junk regarding women. It wants me to blame everything on women to preserve my ego or something like that.
Running stage one for over 32 days did give me extra time to unearth a rather large emotional attachment and dependence on something regarding women. It came as a dream where I became extremely emotional over the death of someone I viewed as the love of my life.
Moving on to the next stage tonight.
This stage was pretty subtle to me.The drive to do different things were almost natural but sometimes it is very sudden.
-Recently I had the drive to make some cash on the side. When I started to implement a plan to make more money I had a lot of resistance because I feared the worst thing would happen but it didn't.
-Started to get care more about hygiene. I'm taking steps to being cleaner and smell good. Revisited my small cologne collection consistently instead of having it collect dust.
- Trying to improve my physical appearance by buying better looking clothing. I wear business casual most of the time so I decided to build on to that with a blazer. I don't think I can wear it everyday in a high school setting. Any thoughts?
This stage hasn't been all that smooth either because it has been uncovering some emotional junk regarding women. It wants me to blame everything on women to preserve my ego or something like that.
Running stage one for over 32 days did give me extra time to unearth a rather large emotional attachment and dependence on something regarding women. It came as a dream where I became extremely emotional over the death of someone I viewed as the love of my life.
