Ben12's Journey to tranformation

[ben123456305]

I feel like my mind immediatly starts resisting the sub.r I decided to view women differently from sexual playthings to attractive people with personalities. My minds response was very noticeable resistance. Fear came up as my mind was desperately telling me to hold on to it because it is a part of me. I was telling myself to let it go. After a little bit I felt better and happy. Then in my dreams I was with this girl and she was teaching me how to kiss. This dream was different because it wasn't sexual at all.
Edit. Female coworker seems to be looking my way. Not sure if I should ask her to hangout because I tried once and she gave me an excuse instead.
Edit2: trying this counter i saw on Sarge's signature. a least i can hold myself somewhat accountable.