12-14-2017, 09:14 AM
Ok so this is not a journal entry so much as it is some thoughts that I was having. There is still not much to report on as it is currently Xmas break and not much is happening academic wise. I do expect that results will take place in due season so long as I meet the sub halfway and put in the necessary effort. I understand this takes patience and effort.
However, I was seriously thinking about my desire to eventually acquire a copy of AM6. Which I still want to do. This was my original plan: to do a 3 month run of MLS until about mid March where I would eventually have the money to purchase AM6. And start AM6 at the beginning of April. The problem now is that money is a serious issue since my current job is paying me jack-**** on part time hours (I am currently seeking a job related to my field to get experience). And I have to pay out of pocket since the school I attend (a technical college) does not process loans. Supposedly this will change (according to the dean) because the school is supposed to complete its transition to community college status by the summertime. However I don't want to assume anything.
I still have 1.5 years left of school and I will be 31 by the time I graduate. This is what worries me. (And Shannon if you happen to be reading this could you offer some insight on this?): I am worried that by the time I turn 30 this summer, my brain will not be capable of any more changes. That at that point "I am who I am". I read an article somewhere that after 30 it is difficult (if not impossible) to change your personality.
The fact is, my schooling is top priority. Working a job during the day and attending school at night will only allow me the bare minimum of 8 hours of listening time while sleeping. So I feel like if I try to do this (AM6) while I'm still in school I won't get much from it. Not because it doesn't work but because I won't be able to put as much time as I want/need to into it. Also I definitely will not have time for much socializing (which from what I understand is a requirement on my part) due to my homework load on the weekends.
So in short I may have to wait until after I graduate at 31 to actually do AM6. And for right now focus on MLS which only requires 4 loops per night while I'm in school trying to learn my trade.
I know this post is a doozie and I'm sorry for being so long winded. But am I overthinking this? Does anyone have any recommendations for me?
However, I was seriously thinking about my desire to eventually acquire a copy of AM6. Which I still want to do. This was my original plan: to do a 3 month run of MLS until about mid March where I would eventually have the money to purchase AM6. And start AM6 at the beginning of April. The problem now is that money is a serious issue since my current job is paying me jack-**** on part time hours (I am currently seeking a job related to my field to get experience). And I have to pay out of pocket since the school I attend (a technical college) does not process loans. Supposedly this will change (according to the dean) because the school is supposed to complete its transition to community college status by the summertime. However I don't want to assume anything.
I still have 1.5 years left of school and I will be 31 by the time I graduate. This is what worries me. (And Shannon if you happen to be reading this could you offer some insight on this?): I am worried that by the time I turn 30 this summer, my brain will not be capable of any more changes. That at that point "I am who I am". I read an article somewhere that after 30 it is difficult (if not impossible) to change your personality.
The fact is, my schooling is top priority. Working a job during the day and attending school at night will only allow me the bare minimum of 8 hours of listening time while sleeping. So I feel like if I try to do this (AM6) while I'm still in school I won't get much from it. Not because it doesn't work but because I won't be able to put as much time as I want/need to into it. Also I definitely will not have time for much socializing (which from what I understand is a requirement on my part) due to my homework load on the weekends.
So in short I may have to wait until after I graduate at 31 to actually do AM6. And for right now focus on MLS which only requires 4 loops per night while I'm in school trying to learn my trade.
I know this post is a doozie and I'm sorry for being so long winded. But am I overthinking this? Does anyone have any recommendations for me?
