Day 15
Negative stress relief has kicked in…I think.
I’ve had a tsunami of crap come my way, but today a wave of cool confidence has washed over me. It just feels like everything will be alright, and even as I sit to really think about it – everything WILL be truly okay, but it’s also nice to feel that on a deep emotional level as well.
Now more than ever I see the true difference between having an empowered mindset when attacking a problem, and feeling weak/ questioning of myself. It’s just two different worlds. They don’t remotely look or feel the same way, even though I have the same problem, just now viewed from two very different perspectives.
Day 16
I keep having random dreams of my ex screwing me over in subtle ways. This just tells me that the h/c is kicking my ass.
Last night I also had to cut off a business contact in copywriting who’s been a pain in the ass.
Though we started in the industry at roughly the same time, I became slightly more successful, and though I know the guy has skill, he sucks at actually prospecting for work.
Anyway, last night I got a small message from him asking how I’m doing with my clients. Like dude…I’m doing perfectly fine with my clients. But I bet he has none right now lol
He’s trying to either mooch contacts or connections so he can boost himself. The trouble here is that he never really helps others; he just takes and sort of yells “thanks” as he disappears until he has another problem.
I know the h/c is also making me notice him to remove him from my life. I’ve known him for a year now, and it’s time to cut ties.
From what I can tell now, the h/c feels like it will last about 6 weeks. It’s slowly digging through my shit and pulling up crazy little things from my past. Lots of things related to doubting myself, and my abilities going forward.
It also appears that h/c is synced up with ending around the time that a few key problems/ projects start to end/ reignite. So that should be special.
My memory has boosted about 50% now. My short term recall has improved and I’m finding myself making fewer lists now. I can recall stuff faster, but now I’m hoping long term recall gets affected soon because there are a few key things I want to recall, and I can’t remember what they were as they were project ideas from last year, but at least remembering what they were would definitely help (what a clusterfuck! lol)
Negative stress relief has kicked in…I think.
I’ve had a tsunami of crap come my way, but today a wave of cool confidence has washed over me. It just feels like everything will be alright, and even as I sit to really think about it – everything WILL be truly okay, but it’s also nice to feel that on a deep emotional level as well.
Now more than ever I see the true difference between having an empowered mindset when attacking a problem, and feeling weak/ questioning of myself. It’s just two different worlds. They don’t remotely look or feel the same way, even though I have the same problem, just now viewed from two very different perspectives.
Day 16
I keep having random dreams of my ex screwing me over in subtle ways. This just tells me that the h/c is kicking my ass.
Last night I also had to cut off a business contact in copywriting who’s been a pain in the ass.
Though we started in the industry at roughly the same time, I became slightly more successful, and though I know the guy has skill, he sucks at actually prospecting for work.
Anyway, last night I got a small message from him asking how I’m doing with my clients. Like dude…I’m doing perfectly fine with my clients. But I bet he has none right now lol
He’s trying to either mooch contacts or connections so he can boost himself. The trouble here is that he never really helps others; he just takes and sort of yells “thanks” as he disappears until he has another problem.
I know the h/c is also making me notice him to remove him from my life. I’ve known him for a year now, and it’s time to cut ties.
From what I can tell now, the h/c feels like it will last about 6 weeks. It’s slowly digging through my shit and pulling up crazy little things from my past. Lots of things related to doubting myself, and my abilities going forward.
It also appears that h/c is synced up with ending around the time that a few key problems/ projects start to end/ reignite. So that should be special.
My memory has boosted about 50% now. My short term recall has improved and I’m finding myself making fewer lists now. I can recall stuff faster, but now I’m hoping long term recall gets affected soon because there are a few key things I want to recall, and I can’t remember what they were as they were project ideas from last year, but at least remembering what they were would definitely help (what a clusterfuck! lol)
