05-06-2011, 04:54 AM
Stage 4 Week 1 - Week 9 Overcoming Procrastination 4G
- Night sleep pattern changed from zonked to restless. Dreams returned to being remembered and very vivid, but showing no alpha sub generated patterns that I can detect. I also have pre-waking dread. This normally occurred on Monday morning, but I've had a few mornings lately in which I have a feeling of dread. The dread leaves once I'm awake. One nightmare of which I can not remember just waking up knowing that in the dream the world was against me.
- Previously I mentioned that I was not eating as much. That phase only lasted a week after which I regained my appetite. I hit another not-eating-phase. Sometimes I could just pass on a meal and instead have a small snack.
- Gaining respect within my company. I'm very vocal in meetings with my opinions. When a meeting gets out of control, which occurs the majority of the time, I will take control and keep the topic on task. This is not new to me in that its a natural part of my personality. However, that portion of my personality was dormant for quite a while.
- Still having problems with spelling. Something happened since Max Memory and AM11. I'm needing to learn to spell which for some reason I never learnt. This may have been an issue in the past and my mind skillfully maneuvered me around it.
- Would love Shannon to complete the Max Memory and Extreme Self Esteem 4G subs. (self-esteem is for my family in prep for Life-Tuneup which will start this fall)
- Would love a sub for spelling but the queue for subs appears to be into 2012.
- Increased annoyance at individuals who refuse to change. The phrases, "Hey that's the way it's always been", or "It must be OK because that's how I've done it in the past.", strike a raw nerve with me.
- Maybe seeing the inklings of improvement in my wage (current employment). Nothing yet but the rustling in the trees have peek my interest. It may, however, just be the wind.
- Not sure what's up with posture and walk. Sometimes I'm aware that my walk is slow with straight back and square shoulders, other times I just walk not aware of my posture, back, or shoulders. Not sure I care any more.
- Attention span improving. I'm able to listen and learn in meetings. I'm still attentive while others are starting to mind drift.
- Still hitting patches of resistance and neediness. Also hitting stretches of procrastination. The duration and intensities of the patches are getting less and less.
- Hmmm stage 4 or something is doing a number on my libido, which seems to be very OK with Ms AYD.
