06-24-2010, 02:54 AM
day 18:
THANK YOU !!!
I was watching soccer (Germany vs. Ghana) with close friends of mine. We entered a bar, a girl was in there that I´ve seen the second time. I was sitting on the floor (becafuse the whole bar was full of people). Last time she said, she likes my hair. I turned my head, and smiled in my sexy mofo way to her... 5 minutes later, she came down and played with my hair "we have to put it there and there... so it looks still better". The game was over, we went out. Some girls of our group came to me, asking if I´ve got my own haircutter ;-).
We went on an afterparty, a good gf of mine came to me and hang on me, nearly ripping my neck off ... I walked with her arm in arm over the party. 5 minutes later, another good gf came to me (exactly the same). Friends ask me: "you and your girls" :-D.
What was interesting to me ... While the party my awareness was (I thought) at the top. I was standing LITERALLY (!) in the middle of the party with a strong and confident standing as if the whole city was mine... I can´t describe. I didn´t do anything more than just looking around and seeing people partying.
Oh yes, I´ve met another good gf of mine (but she is very happy with his friend), I JUST (!) said "hello", she made me a guestbook entry on a portal side "I was really happy to have you seen again yesterday...". Another girl is writing me, I should come to her ...
And still another girl I will meet tomorrow after having a real hot telephone call
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To my dreams:
They are weird. I dream a lot about girls - positive and negative stuff. Tonight I dreamed again about my past two long(er) relationships. I woke up and didn´t know where I am, I was really dizzy. Further a lot of shit is coming up, that wants to be released. I am not fighting directly against it, but telling myself my positive affirmations. Is this the real way or should I just say "fuck off, it´s released either way"?
@ Ryan: what does it mean to have an "edge"? Could you explain on that?
THANK YOU !!!
I was watching soccer (Germany vs. Ghana) with close friends of mine. We entered a bar, a girl was in there that I´ve seen the second time. I was sitting on the floor (becafuse the whole bar was full of people). Last time she said, she likes my hair. I turned my head, and smiled in my sexy mofo way to her... 5 minutes later, she came down and played with my hair "we have to put it there and there... so it looks still better". The game was over, we went out. Some girls of our group came to me, asking if I´ve got my own haircutter ;-).
We went on an afterparty, a good gf of mine came to me and hang on me, nearly ripping my neck off ... I walked with her arm in arm over the party. 5 minutes later, another good gf came to me (exactly the same). Friends ask me: "you and your girls" :-D.
What was interesting to me ... While the party my awareness was (I thought) at the top. I was standing LITERALLY (!) in the middle of the party with a strong and confident standing as if the whole city was mine... I can´t describe. I didn´t do anything more than just looking around and seeing people partying.
Oh yes, I´ve met another good gf of mine (but she is very happy with his friend), I JUST (!) said "hello", she made me a guestbook entry on a portal side "I was really happy to have you seen again yesterday...". Another girl is writing me, I should come to her ...
And still another girl I will meet tomorrow after having a real hot telephone call
.To my dreams:
They are weird. I dream a lot about girls - positive and negative stuff. Tonight I dreamed again about my past two long(er) relationships. I woke up and didn´t know where I am, I was really dizzy. Further a lot of shit is coming up, that wants to be released. I am not fighting directly against it, but telling myself my positive affirmations. Is this the real way or should I just say "fuck off, it´s released either way"?
@ Ryan: what does it mean to have an "edge"? Could you explain on that?
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