Artemis does AM6

[Artemis]

Why not go and see a hypnotherapist (a decent one) ? Anti depressants don't deal with the cause of your depression - they just distract you from the horrible feelings. You need to deal directly with the cause; not just cover it up....

I think part of AM6 stage one, for me at least, is dealing with problems that I would normally just cover up and ignore. I've been ignoring being depressed and experiencing less and less happiness for the last two years of my life and I can't continue deluding myself into believing I'm OK.

Tapping and Sedona have both helped a lot but I don't believe I'm at where I should be at, and for now I want to take anti-depressants, although this may just be temporary. Being happier will allow me to deal with my problems more directly, which I haven't been able to do because I'm always depressed.

you have to remove the source not the output.

I can't remove anything if I'm stuck in this negative cycle where I can lay in bed for hours and hours a day and ignore being heavily dehydrated and hungry. Looking back on my life up to this point it's rather crazy how well I've convinced myself all of this is normal when in fact it's not.

I'm an adult now and I can't tolerate another possible 5 months where I'm not doing the best that I possibly can, which is hurting my future and immediate happiness. Not going to happen. If all that's standing between me and a better day is some pills I'm taking the pills.

Day 11:

I'm becoming more and more assertive each day. Case in point, my reply above. I don't believe I could have ever been so assertive 11 days before. I probably wouldn't have been confident enough to follow my own decision. If I'm wrong, so what? I mean, who really, really cares?

My anxiety is being lowered more and more, and it's still not where I want it to be but it's improving every day.

I've noticed in these last 2 days that I'm very very happy to do my work. I clicked out of some porn last night, and instead of fapping took a cold shower. I felt happier that I made the right decision than I believe I would have felt if I had actually masturbated! I didn't think I would ever get a dopamine rush off doing the right thing. This has also led me to realize a negative belief that I hold: Work can never, ever be pleasurable. This is such a terrible attitude to hold towards being productive and working and I can see just how it's screwing me over right now.

Something I realized while I was scouring the internet was that Alpha and Beta traits can not exist comfortably with each other. I've been resisting this sub because I know it would make a drastic change upon my life, and it's something I felt like I wouldn't be ready for. I've committed to doing this for 6 months and I can't back out, so I'm going all in and throwing as much effort towards becoming an Alpha Male as possible. Geodude really inspired me with how he tapped on so many of his negative beliefs that when he started AM5 he was able to adopt the changes must faster and I'm hoping to be able to do the same.

I'm graduating in a week and I just realized how many opportunities for fun I've missed out on. I still live with my parents and they've become harsher and harsher with their rules and somewhere along the line I just gave in too. My parents would always isolate me from my friends and never let me go out, and before I would rebel and not accept it, but I gave in very heavily when my depression got worse, and it definitely fueled a downward spiral.

My only goal now is to move out and be able to enjoy being a kid, because up until I turned 18 this year, I haven't really been able to hang out with friends and I feel like I've missed out on a major part of being a human being. I'm also very bitter about it, but I'm trying my best to get over it....

I'll most likely be making weekly updates. I want to limit the amount of time I spend on this site and other forums because it's not making a positive impact on my life.