Artemis does AM6

[Artemis]

+1 for the cold showers, there are a real therapy and a great assist for this sub

Especially if you start your day with a cold shower and with some music in the background, might make your whole day great.

It really does. I feel like I'm only taking hot showers out of habit now. When I don't take a cold shower I feel bad both physically and mentally because I know it was something I should have done.

Be strong with the rest of things you're going through, and try not to think of so many negative things. When you go to the school next time, remember that that crow of people is actually made of individuals, and if you would take them separately, you can't always tell how many are that confident as they try to appear.

That's a really good way to think about it, that this crowd is made up of individuals. I have a negative view of "society" but really society is made up of individuals so I should probably make an effort to get to know these individuals rather than placing them in a little box.

And that you have a much better self-education etc etc.. I'm trying to say that you should think of the reasons of why you are better, think of your optimistic things.

I don't want to feel like I'm better. I love myself and my qualities but I'd rather just feel like we're equal and not have to compete.

After 5 years from now on (and even sooner), nobody will remember about some guy not being confident enough while walking in the school yard. You got my point.

Very true. The year is almost over and I will never see 99% of these people ever again.

For example, wake up in one morning with 1 hour earlier, and imagine while still in bed, that you are 80 years old and think ONLY on 'fake' memories of regrets that you got during those 80 years, as in a scenario where you wouldn't change into an AM. So, simulate how many crappy situations you had to put up with, with friends, family, future/actual wife, kids, bosses, banks etc (or maybe you're after financial freedom); either of these, think of how you went throughout your life and had these problems, do that for 1 hour while imagining that you're 80 years old on the dying bed.

After that, suddenly wake out of the bed, go to the bathroom and watch yourself in the mirror seeing yourself YOUNG again, as like it was given a second chance to you. Step in that cold shower and think about how many things you have to do in that day and the ones to come, and that whenever you will feel anxious at school or other situations, just get pissed off/mad/revolted by the reason of that anxious feeling or insecurity.

I'm not sure if anger would be the best way to confront my anxiety. Using the Sedona method I'd rather just welcome it and release it rather than get angry and perpetuate a negative cycle.

Thanks for making this post David, really appreciate your insight.

Yesterday I talked to an active listener at 7cupsoftea.com. I talked to him about an issue that has been bugging me for years and was the whole reason why I started this self-improvement journey. I feel a massive weight lifted off my shoulder, which I hope will allow the effects of the subliminal to become even stronger.

I realized a problem that has been holding me back for a long time. Whenever I succeed or fail, I look at myself only from the perspective of that success or failure. Everything else is forgotten. This gives me a very skewed view of myself. When I look at the overall picture though, I'm never as bad or as good as I think I am. I'm making it my mission to adjust to what I just discovered. It's kind of difficult though because when I succeed of course I only want to see my success, and when I fail it's hard to come out of a downward spiral and really give myself the credit that I deserve.

I've also been noticing where my desires come from. I'm trying to improve myself because I think that deep inside I'm not OK, and I feel like when I continue coming from this view of myself, I'm only going to attract more and more of this attitude. I don't have to improve because I feel like I'm not OK with myself, but rather I can improve because I choose to make my life better and etc.

Something really cool that has happened is that lately when I think of other people in my life, I always see them cheering me on and congratulating me. Before I would think of other people so I could see my flaws through their eyes and try to correct them, but now they all seem to be really accepting (in my own head.)

When I had finished talking with my active listener he recommended I get some medication for my depression and anxiety. I agreed that it would probably be for the best, since I had been avoiding getting medication for a while. Considering that I live in California I'm eligible for a medical card for medical marijuana, which I'm not a big fan of, but seems to be better than taking any actual medication. My intolerance for the drug really stems from the pothead culture, but I'd be interested in taking it if it had any medical benefits for me and was legal.

Shannon do you know anything about anti-depressants or anti-anxiety medications, and possibly smoking marijuana in place of those two? Is there anything you could tell me outside of what I could Google that would help me make an informed choice?