Apex-Predator Evolutionary Log - AM6 RE-RUN Stage 2 - Letting go

[AlphaMind]

I dunno why people keep on bashing why it's not working. Mind if I remind you that Shannon himself use Alpha Male Subliminal Training Set from 2006 and it took him 6 times of running it to get it sink in. He also runs twice of Sex Magnet to get the intended results

True huh, that perseverance and patience is NONE in human at this century. Lucky that I have chose to believed patience is virtue.

[koshas]

There are a lot of scientific studies online showing the effigy of subliminals.
Some are better than others.

I have seen a lot of derren s shows he's intelligent and knows nlp,magic etc.

He is a showman some based on fact some on trickery and magic.

Basically he makes a living doing all of these.hes good at it.

Use discernment.

[Dee]

@ Koshas - True, discernment in all things.

@AlphaMind - Yeah but medication doesn't work on all people the same, some may have bad side effects, and spending 4 years of you life persevering on something that doesn't work isn't wise, and your point makes good sense.

@LeoistheSun - "You can witness what people have accomplished, and achieved; but you have no idea of their internal battles or what they had to overcome." That is the truest thing I've ever heard. Am starting a meditation course and taking attention stimulates, my over-thinking was a condition beyond my control. But i have learnt to accept that no one is better that anyone else in general as we don't all start at the same place or have the same starting line. Life is like a game of cards, some people just have better hands than others at the start.

@Maniac360 - Its just when you study metaphysics, the world seems quite different. There have been studies done that prove that if a doctor give you medication but doubts its effectiveness it will be less effective. So obviously if you expect stage 1 to make certain changes as you read the product description and user journals, your belief will mode your reality. its simple. Maybe the The X24 Subliminal Audio Aphrodisiac sub would be a good test. If you don't get turned on, you know it doesn't work, if you do you can always use that experience as a reference point. What you think guys????

[Dee]

Alpha Male 6 - The Beginning

Anyway. I figured I might as well listen to Alpha Male 6, and see what all the fuss is about, I only have a few 100 bucks to lose, right? I started listening to it a few days ago, the read up about using other programming with it while I was listening to my hypnosis tapes, so I stopped.

I wanted to start afresh next year with it but I just accepted that am hypnosis junkie (the kind that will use a hypnosis to get off hypnosis, so I’ll probably continue listening to hyno sessions all thru next year. The way I see it a book, movie or TV program can still interfere with the AM6 programming, eg AM6 states belief A.2 but a 450 page book supports a conflicting belief A.3 that are conflicting, am sure you get my point.

UPDATE:

So everything I had planned for this year didn’t go as planned. We secured the funding for the business, the projections and everything was great, we even hired 4 staff and a manager. I followed the example of dyslexic and ADD business people by getting people to compensate for my weak areas. That worked OK, but we ran out of cash flow as our biggest marketplace account has still been pending for about 6 months now, a process that should take 5 days for so. As a result we had to let the staff go. On top of that the government has had my passport for over a year (visa application), so I have been unable to get a job meaning I have had no steady source of income for a very long time. I got a letter two days ago stating that the case has been adjourned to June 2016. THAT SUCKS. I haven’t been able to complete all of the programs I planned to. I did complete FastforWord reading and spelling program for dyslexia, and it did not help one bit. Also my brain training programs helped in all the other areas except for my weakest ones. So I decide to go get some professional help for the condition. I’ll probably start my ADD medication in Jan then go see psychologists for my dyslexia and other issues like acceptance and self-esteem.

The upside

On the upside, am moving out soon, I’ll get a job without needing my passport and I can still work on the business but grow it slowly myself when we get the account we have been waiting for. Ave out grown my old goals and I will have to re-plan them after I see the effectiveness of the stimulate drugs. The thing is I know it’s possible but with ADD you can’t focus on boring or routine things no matter how hard you try. Its not a willpower, it like sex, if you not turned on you can’t get it up no matter how much willpower you use. Most of my goals require repetition and boring tasks that wont “turn me on” so I would be fooling myself to think I will do them without the stimulates, that will in essence make me “normal” in regards to attention and concentration. I always felt greatest within me but journal is often long and boring with the repetive drills and routines for years and years that add up to overnight success and “15 mins” of fame. Finally I have a fair chance. Also I hired a coach to help me stay on my goals and targets, I think accountability is important, you guys are cool, but it’s different.

[Dee]

AM6 STAGE 1 - Day 3

Caring what people think

So I have been approaching at least a person a day (some days skipped coz of mild depression), some were good, others not so, yesterday I even had a negative day and thoughts of quitting entered my mind. But I managed to push through it. I noticed that I could approach women in the dark when they alone but not in a place with people close enough to hear or see (could explain my poor results).

I would see someone I wanted to approach but my mind would only focus on the people around and I’ll abort mission. I even tried approaching at night time but only managed in places that where isolated from the groups of potential critics.

So today I decided to go out into a town/city where I would never be seen at again and do live EFT round’s on myself in public. I just walked around looking at people and tapping, walked in stores, in supermarkets, stopped in the middle of busy streets and tapped. It seems to have worked really well I approached three women after that, one at a bus stop her bus came and she skipped, one in the middle of a busy road, I was in a daze and that approached sucked but she gave me a chance. The last was a girl at a bus stop near home, I got her number.

Auto-pilot interviewer

I realised I start asking rapid questions unconsciously , am glad a’ve given myself the opportunity to learn from my mistakes without been too negative about the arward approaches . I know that by the end of next year I will a different person, I even went to watch a movie alone, something I would never have done some time ago. My brother even said I changed as he has a short temper and the other day he lost his top while texting and I didn’t get trapped up in that like I normally would. I guess change happens to gradually it’s hard to pin point.

Face my demons

Anyway I seem to have this motto I have been saying to myself, “Am the type of person that confronts his fears”. I was trying to look for it in the script library thinking maybe it was a suggestion. I figured out that if I want to be successful I have to do what average people aren’t willing to do, even if it means reading some homoerotic out a loud in a busy area to become comfortable with my voice.

All our dreams are on the other side of our fears and most people don’t face there’s. I was really looking forward to going to that nudist manor last summer, but at least I have steady income so next year, I will definitely go. Also I think during summer I will try to visit all the nudist beaches too, even by myself, that 12 weekends in summer. After that depending on my budget I’ll shoot a porn movie, I found a company that does private videos and it doesn’t cost that much.

Just figured been 100% comfortable in your own skin to the point that you can have sex in front of people and a camera would completely change your life forever.

PICK UP metaphor for true happiness

I have a metaphor I thought of today to illustrate that point. I saw this butiful women in the bus, we looked at each other, I thought of approaching but there was an old couple behind and I walked pass her and sat at the back. She when sat sideways, which in my mind was still inviting and she could probably see thru the mirror, but ……… I thought to myself, shame that’s every average person’s story, they see something they want, open, inviting, just waiting for you to crab it, but fear gets in the way.

Not just women, but in everything, education, profession, business, health and so on. That’s why in the beginning I wanted to master this PUA stuff, not for the lots of sex, like I said I didn’t enjoy it much so that’s not a motivator right now, I wanted to master it as a gateway to bigger things.

Push it to the limit

The stuff I’ll do over the next few months will be a little extreme and am sure you guys will be stocked, the thing is a watched this documentary of an actor with learning and attention deficits, she spent about 3 hours cramming her lines that would take “normal” people 15-20 mins to cram. Bottom line I have to work harder that most and push myself more, I have to do more extreme stuff to stimulate change. I still have that voice in my head “Am the type of person that confronts his fears”.


PS anyone know of good resources for summerising techniques or are these long post OKAY?

[Dee]

AM6 STAGE 1 - Day 4

It seems my dreams have turned into action movies. I was like James Bond last night, I actually stabbed two guys in the chest during a car chase and tipped a truck. I then had a few intimate dreams, in one I was declaring my love to some girl. Then in another I was in a bath with two female kids, it was really disturbing they kept changing from women to kids. I don’t know if it has anything to do with the girl I met yesterday, I got her number and she said she was 17 via text, am like 26 so I thought to not take it any further. On that note I asked her to guess my age, she said 16. It made me a bit insecure, wondering if I was that immature in my approach, or the way I was dressed (I had a tracksuit on) or if it’s just coz am a small guy. I asked her why she said 16 and she said coz I asked her to guess. I have underachieved for my age so I get embarrassed sometimes when I said it. All that's soon to change tho.

AM6 Health Motivation?

I have been jogging for 3 days in a row, yesterday I just when out for a walk and I was like come on man and started jogging, today I was like let me go jogging. If I keep this up for a week + I will give full credit to AM6 has it will be a first.
I woke up at around 1:30pm today and stayed in bed a long time, I had planned to go and break some more fears today but I didn’t have the energy. I have been neglecting my diet and it’s been sapping my energy. I watched a vid from Tyler RSD for hardcase newbies and he has ADHD, had depressive tendies and who knows what else, In it he says that such people need to watch they diet more than others, they already chemically inbalanced and he was like even drinking a soda can change the outcome of a day for such a person. Can’t wait to start gyming and dieting when I get my first pay, I have a program and diet plan ready.

About ambition threatening diseases and cures

Besides that listened to “Attention Deficit Disorder” audiobook by some Doctor and it describes test cases and personal stories, I don’t know weather to be pissed off or happy, it seems all my problems like be sorted out by taking stimulates twice a day. Imagine that, self-esteem boost, motivation, focus, organisation skills and a host of my other weak points, sorted in 15-30 mins.

Am shaking in excitement right now, I always felt distained for greatness but had this invisible barrier, I could never break thru coz I could never see, but now a simple little pill can remove it. I have gained many qualities from having these condition and am burning with a desire to “win” that will make hell freeze over. I don’t know who I’ll become by this time next year, but I do know it will be the best year of my life and that will be a new trend.

Commitment and Enthusiasm

OH yeah finally got an email from the marketplace they approved the business account after giving my 6 months of hell, asking us to resend the documents like 100 times, lost interest in the business, now I need to psych myself up, wish I could start the new BASE now. Also I have started been active on the forums since starting AM6, any connection there, I wonder.

[Dee]

Merry XMAS GUYS. Lets Seize the New Year with our two hands and not let go until we take everything we can from it.

[Dee]

Okay dee. You get a real full and critical precision analysis.


the 8 in and of its self is competitive. to get the most satisfaction out of life the 8 has to be under the covers. The 9 has to be on top.

I'm really confused, what are you on about?

[Dee]

AM6 STAGE 1 - Day 5

Xmas is cool. The AM6 subs are screwing up my sleep, I wake up after a few hours thinking about the changes I must make. Then I wake up mid-day, next year I plan to be walking at 6am and hopefully jogging before I start the day, I only hope this sub stabilizes before then or I might have to change the listening plan.

Family Manipulation

Besides that my brother has always had power over me, I cultural obey your elder’s thing. This Xmas he tried sending me around but I didn’t comply he shouted and all but I was cool about it, before I would react like a dear in head lights.
My mum also sent my sister to get something and I was standing close to the door. I thought that was weird been the youngest and all and been the closest, to the door. For some reason I don’t like been told what to do anymore.

Why try to improve people?

Tried speaking to my brother about ADHD and ADD since I done the research and saw the professional about it, it seems everyone thinks it’s just an excuse and anyone can claim to have it. Its been known to run thru families at different intensities. Don’t know why I have this urge to “help” people. Even got on someone else’s trend trying to get him off porn coz it almost utterly destroyed my life. I don’t know why am the only one in my family that’s trying to better myself, and they not been helpful, always teasing me about the self-improvement stuff I do. I would have spent my life struggling with ADHD and Dyslexia because they think I choose to be lazy even tho I have potential. Cant wait to break free from they influence and be independent of thought, emotions, validation etc. Otherwise all’s well cool holiday and I still cant wait to start my meds and start my new life next year.

[Dee]

AM6 STAGE 1 - Day 6

WWJD

Just got into an heated discussion with my brother, of course he has alot of ADD like I do, meaning he suffers from a lot of symptoms from what I’ve noticed. Told him about the assessment I went to and all that. He seems to think I always push my improvement stuff onto him.

I got over smoking and drinking and tried to give him the same techniques, I got over many issues he has using EFT, hypnosis etc but he won’t have it. I feel like if the ADD medication works as “advertised” I will grow by leaps and bounds and our relationship will be treated. I guess that’s what it’s like in relationships when one person grows and another stays stagnant (must be the worse in a marriage). Its just so the more f'd up when its family.

Selfishness or Self-righteousness

I need to find the line and stop trying to be like Jesus helping everyone and just help myself (selfish?). This reminds me of a dream I had, this morning, as usual the subs woke me up after a few hours. So I was having little periods of sleep and I had a dream, some aliens or something invaded my city and I decided to take charge, telling the women and children where to go, gathering young folk and men to join the fight, I even gave one of those motivational speeches you see in epic war movies. My mum, sister and brother where in the dream too, not sure what it means, but my dreams are really entertaining lately. I wonder what adventures are instore for me tonight.

Life Coach and ADD

I missed an appointment with my Life Coach today, it was to work on my goals for 2015 and the next 5-10 years, he emailed me 4 hours later for some reason, if he had done sooner we could have still had it. I can blame it on my ADD, his the only person in my life that suggested I go get checked out for my ADD and Dyslexia (Duh!!), so it will be promising working with him. He works with a lot of people with the same disposition or so he says.

2014 Recap – 2015 options

I swear down if the meds don’t work, am going ZEN on the world and seeking the spiritual path fully accepting that I was not meant for material success. I was reviewing my entire journal to summize the year and the improvements I made, it may take a while, family is still around for the holiday. I also lied to my investor today about the progress of Amazon, not proud about it but I thought best to get on the meds first for better productivity before we begin persisting again, doubt he'll understand.

BOTTOMS UP! :angel:

[Dee]

AM6 STAGE 1 - Day 7

Dream journal.

These subs are messing my up sleep. I tossed and turned all night long. It like having a constant steam of thoughts and even though I may fall into theta I still feel “awake”. Anyway I still had a few dreams. COOL dreams. I was in my primary school class and I couldn’t find my bag, it was almost home or break time, I stood at the door and I told the class no one is leaving until they found my bag. Then some of the popular guys at the school came at my and a beat up a lot of them. The teacher was like give him his bag, I was awesome. I once did something like that as a teen when I lost my phone at a party, someone found it, I was drunk and didn’t give a …..

Anyway months ago I used to dream of running away, running away from animals, police, gangsters and so on, it seems that was my automatic reaction to stuff, always avoiding confrontation. Now am fighting back and taking more control of my dreams.

Other than that, didn’t get to do my approaching excises, or break more barriers as my nephew and brother are around for a few days. I when on a walk with my nephew, I think I can ditch him today and go for a jog I feel the urge to.

Porn fantasy into reality

My mums mate is coming over as well for a few days (they met as UNI so she’s not as old), she’ll be staying over. She’s in to me, she even brought her sister from Czech republic to “see” me. Her sister couldn’t speak English so I don’t know how it was supposed to work. Anyway, we were watching some romantic movies with sex scenes and all in dark some time ago when my parents stepped out the house for a while.

I was a p*ussy so I didn’t bother making any moves, I got drunk once and made a terrible try. I’ve been thinking to testing my new found balls and trying something, I don’t think she’ll tell my mum if she rejects me, that would be awkward. If we ever get time together then it’s on, I just know it’s not going to be smooth but it needs to be done. I can think of it as a porn fantasy to motivate myself, banging your mum’s friend. NICE. Wish me luck. Truth is I won’t know how to escalate it, it maybe a bad idea.

[Dee]

AM6 STAGE 1 - Day 8-9

Fates are messing with me, so we got batteries from the local corner store, a multipack that was open and they were sold as singles, we got home tried them and they were flat, so I went back to the store and the lady thinks we were trying to pull a fast one for £4 worth of batteries. Didn’t know how to deal with that situation without going gangster on her arse.

I have been with my nephew and brother last few days, we went to see a movie, came back home and some people had visited, my nephew wanted to continue with MK vs DC game and we found out they kids trashed my xbox 360 I use with my smartbrain tech for attention training gear. Have to confront some people about that, hate the fact they let people into my room when am not around, it’s full of gadgets and stuff, lack of respect.

Didn’t approach any women with my brother around don’t know why, but at the movie place there was some MILF staring hard at me, she was with a huge hung of a guy. Thought attraction is weird.

I remember I once done programming to be more aggressive and someone tried to steal my phone, so I held on to his bike and he had to give me my phone back for his bike. Could it be possible these subs create experiences to achieve its aims, I believe so.

[Dee]

AM6 STAGE 1 - Day 10

Mums friend is leaving tomorrow for Germany. Didn’t get that time alone, although a year ago she invited me to spend a weekend at hers, I was down and out at that time.

I was supposed to find a flat with my sister and she wasted a month leading me on, I just checked my finances and decided to share a flat with someone who already has one so I can invest in my self-improvement more, am not really focused on the money side of thing just yet.

Brother and nephew are leaving tomorrow too, so I’ll be back at it. I wanted to continue with public tapping, when I can do it out aloud in a bus and train I will know I eradicated my fear, I don’t mind spending the next week or so in London exploring and tapping as I have always been afraid/shy to do so before. I have some xmas money, why not.

I tried to find a recommened book called “don’t give a f+ck” or something but couldn’t, I wanted to listen or read something on fear of public speaking, crictism, what people think, approval and stuff like that.

PS I find that older blond ladies have been staring at me hard for the last two days, weird.

[Dee]

AM6 STAGE 1 - Day 11

Holidays are over, Its time to work.

I will start looking for a place tomorrow and try moving out asap, there is a cheap Alexander Technique course starting on the 15th of Jan in the city that am moving to. Although I don’t know when I’ll be getting my ADD meds, I need to attend 1-2 more meetings first in the city where a currently am. Guess I can always travel.

Tomorrow am going to the main tourist attraction places in London to FACE FEARS.

Am just going to make an idiot of myself until I realise It only hurts if I let it. Last time I tried this I approached 3 women after in a more carefree attitude, and since then I haven't bothered wondering about what people are thinking of me . I’ll do this same technique until I can read aloud in a bus or train, I have always spoken low and been insecure about my voice, even when I approach women they can’t hear what am saying, it must be a huge turn off.

Accountability buddies/buddy requested Serious long term focused candidates only!!!

Anyway am looking for some accountability buddies to help in our growth, basically we have certain missions, tasks or assignments to do and we check in with each other to ensure we are growing. I think it’s a more productive strategy to methodology face our fears and build new skills verses just waiting for the subs to change us. PM me if you interested!!!!!!!!!!!!

Going for a jog then to sleep, tomorrow is going to be a new day in the rest of my life.