10-03-2019, 11:15 PM
Anxiety Relief Aid 5.75G.
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Quote:Day 2 at work|Ultrasonic FLAC -50 dB|4 Loops|2 days on - 2 days off
Shortly after we started our shift, the drama began and it was intense!! As it played out, I felt neutral. I watched it like I was changing the channels on television... deciding if I wanted to watch this show or that show. Eventually, I left the room because it didn't interest me.
As I did my job, I suddenly became aware of how quiet my mind was. No thoughts about if my Uncle got my Mom's medical records. (he texted later in the day that he got her medical records). I didn't dwell on the drama that I saw at the beginning of my shift. I didn't wonder who was right or wrong. No stray thoughts about finances or groceries or when I'm going to have time to exercise. My mind was quiet.
I deliberately went outside on my breaks and lunch away from all the noise of the people and equipment and machines; just so I could enjoy the stillness and quiet in my mind. The only thoughts I had run through my head was when I actually started thinking. Like I am now as I type this. When I'm not typing, total silence.
Traffic was unusually heavy on my way home from work tonight. Maybe I'll see one or two cars. Tonight I had three ahead of me, a few behind me, some on my left, some on my right. I was boxed in and the traffic light turned red.
At that point, I would be rolling down the window for fresh air and feeling like opening the door to get out and stand on the road. (never did that, felt like doing it) I physically felt a WAVE of calmness start from my head all through my body, limbs, hands, feet. It was quick, it was over before I realized it happened. Then my mind went quiet. The radio was on and I was sitting there like I was sitting inside my home. Just watching cars go by, waiting for the traffic light to turn green.
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