Alphaness bridging over to Sexiness - AM6.0 -> SM3.0 1st Run

[Adrien Silva]

Getting some resistance right now and its related to my recent ex.I am tempted to chat her up. Seems to me that among all of my exes, I have invested a lot on her. Thats why its somewhat difficult to let go. But it has been a lot tolerable these days. tomorrow marks my second month post breakup.

You looking for new women though?

[SexyMofo]

@ Adrien - Nah. I'm good. Just focusing on myself for now. Chatting up some ladies right now, but it aint my real focus as of the moment. Just building myself up again

Getting some resistance right now and its related to my recent ex.I am tempted to chat her up. Seems to me that among all of my exes, I have invested a lot on her. Thats why its somewhat difficult to let go. But it has been a lot tolerable these days. tomorrow marks my second month post breakup.

You looking for new women though?

[SexyMofo]

Woke up today from a very very very long sleep. the longest sleep I have ever done for for this year. almost 16hours of it. The sub is hitting me quite well right now. Probably finishing some stuff before I proceed with Stage 2 in a couple of days.

Had multiple dreams with regards to my mom and my recent ex. In the dream with my mom, I was having an argument with her. While in dream with my recent ex, we were both having a good time and all afterwhich we had some "fun" time. Woke up in the middle of the sleep with a strong morning wood. Something that hasn't happened for a long time now. As I woke up today, I felt quite liberated. The feelings for my recent ex has already died down. It's like I'm happy with myself now. Last night, my buddy also told me that he noticed I was already getting there. To the point which I have moved on already. He noticed the difference between the me a few weeks before and the Me that he saw yesterday.

I am quite happy with the results that Alpha Stage 1 is producing. When Shannon said that it was up there, he really meant it. During Alpha Male 5.0, I remembered that sometimes my dreams affected my waking hours. But in AM 6.0, there is none. If there was, I believe its quite insignificant. The rage during this stage isn't as pronounced as my previous run. It has been quite more refined. To where I would still be able to think before I act on my rage.

[SexyMofo]

A certain sense of euphoria has gotten into me today. I realized that I have now the potential to be and do what I always wanted to. Something that I wasn't quite accessible when I was in a relationship. I have now the infinite potential to be the best man that I can be. And thus let what does not contribute to my well being waste away.

Mental clarity has been constantly improving. Seeing some more results when it comes to social interactions. It has definitely quite improved. I think the concept of not giving a damn about girls has been cemented. I'm currently focused on myself and just being me.

[SexyMofo]

I'm feeling some resistance in the form of depression as well as feeling stuck. Probably my change of sleeping pattern has also contributed to this. Feeling hopeless and dying. Too much giving a shit. Maybe its my subconscious' way of resisting for one last time for this stage. Everything seems dark despite trying to cheer myself up with my favorite upbeat tunes. Imma gonna sleep this through. Ciao.

[SexyMofo]

Woke up feeling depressed. It took a few more minutes for tears to fall. This is probably the darkest part of my subliminal run. I haven't cried this way in my previous Alpha runs. Feeling regrets about some of my life choices and of my life in general. I feel a lot mixed up feelings that have long been suppressed generally want to surface. It makes me want to seek for help from higher consciousness... I feel disconnected from the source for a long long time.

[kalmah0804]

Woke up feeling depressed. It took a few more minutes for tears to fall. This is probably the darkest part of my subliminal run. I haven't cried this way in my previous Alpha runs. Feeling regrets about some of my life choices and of my life in general. I feel a lot mixed up feelings that have long been suppressed generally want to surface. It makes me want to seek for help from higher consciousness... I feel disconnected from the source for a long long time.

I have cried twice during my 3rd Am6 re-run and have had many days where I've been so depressed I've basically just been putting myhead on a table and trying to get the tears to flow for hours upon hours. Good luck, man. I am hoping that once I finish this I'll be stronger and happier than ever before.

[SexyMofo]

Feeling better today. Although emotions swang from end to end during the day. Getting all excited because it will be 5 days more to go and I will be switching to Stage 2. Can't what Stage 2 will bring me. There has been more confidence, more alpha demeanor. I am acting more of a leader. I have been calling people's shit that includes doctors, charge nurses, assistant charge nurses etc. But at the same time i swing to the opposite. I become beta. feeling helpless, hopeless etc... I'm having the urge to go on a healthy diet. but i seem to be doing quite the opposite right now. Will have to push through a lot more.

@ Kalmah - Thanks man. AM6 seems to be digging more stuff compared to AM5.

[SexyMofo]

Oooh jeeez I have been hypersomniac for the entire Stage 1. It's 4 more days to go before I switch to Stage 2. Feelings of depression have subsided. Hopefully it will be this way up until the end. I am currently enjoying my alone time. Just with myself. Although I sometimes have to go out, I dont have any issues with socialization right now, in contrast to my previous AM run. My Introvert core is currently happy.

Anyhow on another note, I can segregate feelings now. like i can distance myself and observe that feeling for what it is instead of having it run and ruin my thought process. I am pertaining to something as to the feeling of being betrayed. I for one haven't experienced this from my previous relationships. That's why it hit me to the core when it happened. But now I observe it as it is. It has definitely took a hit on my ego as a man. My confidence and self esteem plummeted. It made me question my existence as a man. But despite of all these negative feelings, I still am thankful for them. Experiencing rock bottom definitely showed me a different perspective on things. It's not all rose tinted glasses for me. Although I feel that my recent Ex is wasting herself on a man that is taken. But what to do, it's her whose deciding for her life. But being part of my life, I have that feeling of wanting her in a better position. Just like all of my previous Exes. Me and my exes communicate from time to time just to catch up. And I'm quite happy most of them are in a good place where they are being nurtured by their partners. And that is something enough to give me a certain sense of fulfillment. Anyhow, only time will tell if she finds that light that will bring her to everlasting happiness. For now I must leave it to Fate and Karma.

[XyzN]

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[SexyMofo]

Hey X! Thanks for the heads up bro. I'm glad my journal has touched someone else's life. That has been one of my goals as I tediously document the experience. I'm also glad that a lot of people have started writing down their AM6.0 experience. It's time that a new wave of Alpha Male Users document their experiences, not to brag, but to serve as an inspiration for all the other guys out there that haven't still tried Alpha Male. I have been running Alpha Male since time immemorial, but every time I run AM, I return to my journal and other people's Journals for reference. It's rather easy to forget about the progress you have made, but if it's documented, it can serve as a reference point. So far the AM is one of the subs here that I am quite glad to be able to use. Most of my successes in life I can attribute to what AM has helped developed in me. That's why whenever I'm in doubt to what sub I should do next, I would proceed to doing Alpha. You can never go wrong running it.


Anyhow, am starting my second day of Stage 2. So far I haven't seen any pertinent results other than the usual somebody sleeping over at my house. Hehehe Oh yeah, I have just realized that people that I'm with seem to be more keen on seeking approval. I have been having that arse hole confidence lately. Been challenging some of my guy friends in dominance play, which is kinda fun. Prior, I didnt like doing power play. It irritated the shit out of me. But on this run, I see it as something fun. So much crap has been released from my subconscious. Feeling happy, healthy and sane for the moment. hahaha cheers!


P.S. anybody here could teach me how to insert a video in a post? You're input is highly appreciated

[Benjamin]

P.S. anybody here could teach me how to insert a video in a post? You're input is highly appreciated

Up the top of the posting box on the right side is a tv icon. Click that and select the site e.g youtube and paste the link and press okay, then when you post it should show up as the video.

[SexyMofo]

@ Ben - Thanks man! I'll apply it when the inspiration arises

It's 1:30AM in my watch right now, and I woke up from my dream. Right now it's quite hazy but I all I can remember is it involved my recent ex. In the dream I was being verbal about deserving to be treated better. So far, I haven't had the urge to go look for her anymore. I have continued with my life without her. And everything feels okay. I have finally moved on after a month of being exposed to Alpha Stage 1. I have achieved one of my primary objectives in running Alpha Male.

Looking forward to what lies ahead...

[SexyMofo]

Day 6 of Stage 2. I have yet to see any difference between this stage and the previous stage. There has been no major irritation as of the moment. I'm currently pointing out in reference to my previous Alpha Stage 2 runs of previous versions of Alpha Male. Posted to serve as a marker.