08-25-2014, 07:37 AM
So I think I realized some of the difficulty in the later stages
I'm struggling with some of the newer added issues-but I am also seeing a new light in the benefit of this issues being dealt with
New inclusions from Version 5.0:
Acceptance of, and feelings of deservedness of, being treated well--this has gone way up
Deserving respect from others: Huge now-and I do get alot more respect
Self love and liking yourself-this has been a huge point of resistance-but my self love is getting stronger
Valuing yourself-another huge point of resistance-especially since I tie my self esteem up with success with finances and success with woman-but my self esteem in both those areas has raised-as well as my self esteem simply being with myself.
Extended ego balancing
Strong, centered masculinity and masculine presence-I do feel more masculine and centered-I'm not sure how much more of a masculine presence I am projecting
Destruction of negativity within you concerning yourself and others, and replacement with positivity-this one is working a number on me-I have been very motivated by negativity for a long time now, insecurity, and anxiousness hidden behind well meaning intentions-it feels like it is being really rooted out
Self acceptance with continual striving to be better than you are-absolutely-this is so the norm now-it is like breathing-at times I have been a bit 'manic' with it but I am being more present and enjoying the process more
Destruction of laziness-I was a very lazy person before this Alpha set..I worked hard at times-but in general was very lazy -I am not lazy AT ALL any more-I work my ass off with things I don't want to, discipline, and things I love to do...
Motivation boost--on and off-the habit is always there-feeling the motivational rush is on and off
Doing what needs to be done, because it needs to be done, and that is the way of the Alpha--yup--I'm doing the right thing and what needs to be done way more
Extroversion enhancement and training---not so sure-socializing is easier-but making real connections and new friends hasn't really happened-I also haven't really given to much care to that...socializing with woman is awesome when I have no agenda...having an agenda on the alpha set is pretty difficult for me
Self forgiveness---another huge point of resistance-starting to really realize that I can take responsbility for some of the terrible conditions in my life and emotional life without blaming myself or others-this seems like forgiveness to me
Social stability, skill and strength---again-absolutely-my learning curve is through the roof-a little practice goes a long way
Overcome abandonment issues--this has been the hardest struggle of the set...I've had this terrible feeling of isolation alot throughout the set-especially after stage 3...I would guess that might be this issue getting dealt with...my dad did actually, literally, lie to me and betray me, and abandon me-when I was a teenager/young adult coming into my own...and I ignored it and pretended it didn't matter for the longest times-but I have been having clearer feelings about it since this Alpha set
Success training--not sure about this
Gratitude---at times--I've actually felt quite despondent at times, but the gratitude always seeps through
Self trust---again getting there---I have a ton of self trust in certain situations and not so much in others-also self trust around family and worry of letting them down is really hard for me
Self image of man, instead of boy---slowly but surely
Leadership training and development----definitely-I am making choices and decisions and including others in those
Decisiveness training---I'm seeing this alot as well-I make up my mind and do it
Authenticity and congruence training--not sure-I feel I struggle with aligning all my aspects of self and life together..I do feel very genuine and 'authentic' though
Destruction of jealousy and possessiveness, and replacement with self security, self reliance and self satisfaction---another big struggle--sometimes I go out and am absolutely carefree about anything with woman or who they are with..but other times the jealosy, as in the anxiety and fear about losing something that isn't even mine, or not understanding why one girl or woman would want to be with someone else instead of me gets pretty strong...it always dissolve pretty quickly with all the abundance of woman out there--but it can be like a nagging...I do feel this set has made it better though...SM actually shot my jealousy through the roof...
Constant self growth and progress--it is constant and sometimes seems huge and other times seem just daily learning and small differences that hopefully add up over time
I'm struggling with some of the newer added issues-but I am also seeing a new light in the benefit of this issues being dealt with
New inclusions from Version 5.0:
Acceptance of, and feelings of deservedness of, being treated well--this has gone way up
Deserving respect from others: Huge now-and I do get alot more respect
Self love and liking yourself-this has been a huge point of resistance-but my self love is getting stronger
Valuing yourself-another huge point of resistance-especially since I tie my self esteem up with success with finances and success with woman-but my self esteem in both those areas has raised-as well as my self esteem simply being with myself.
Extended ego balancing
Strong, centered masculinity and masculine presence-I do feel more masculine and centered-I'm not sure how much more of a masculine presence I am projecting
Destruction of negativity within you concerning yourself and others, and replacement with positivity-this one is working a number on me-I have been very motivated by negativity for a long time now, insecurity, and anxiousness hidden behind well meaning intentions-it feels like it is being really rooted out
Self acceptance with continual striving to be better than you are-absolutely-this is so the norm now-it is like breathing-at times I have been a bit 'manic' with it but I am being more present and enjoying the process more
Destruction of laziness-I was a very lazy person before this Alpha set..I worked hard at times-but in general was very lazy -I am not lazy AT ALL any more-I work my ass off with things I don't want to, discipline, and things I love to do...
Motivation boost--on and off-the habit is always there-feeling the motivational rush is on and off
Doing what needs to be done, because it needs to be done, and that is the way of the Alpha--yup--I'm doing the right thing and what needs to be done way more
Extroversion enhancement and training---not so sure-socializing is easier-but making real connections and new friends hasn't really happened-I also haven't really given to much care to that...socializing with woman is awesome when I have no agenda...having an agenda on the alpha set is pretty difficult for me
Self forgiveness---another huge point of resistance-starting to really realize that I can take responsbility for some of the terrible conditions in my life and emotional life without blaming myself or others-this seems like forgiveness to me
Social stability, skill and strength---again-absolutely-my learning curve is through the roof-a little practice goes a long way
Overcome abandonment issues--this has been the hardest struggle of the set...I've had this terrible feeling of isolation alot throughout the set-especially after stage 3...I would guess that might be this issue getting dealt with...my dad did actually, literally, lie to me and betray me, and abandon me-when I was a teenager/young adult coming into my own...and I ignored it and pretended it didn't matter for the longest times-but I have been having clearer feelings about it since this Alpha set
Success training--not sure about this
Gratitude---at times--I've actually felt quite despondent at times, but the gratitude always seeps through
Self trust---again getting there---I have a ton of self trust in certain situations and not so much in others-also self trust around family and worry of letting them down is really hard for me
Self image of man, instead of boy---slowly but surely
Leadership training and development----definitely-I am making choices and decisions and including others in those
Decisiveness training---I'm seeing this alot as well-I make up my mind and do it
Authenticity and congruence training--not sure-I feel I struggle with aligning all my aspects of self and life together..I do feel very genuine and 'authentic' though
Destruction of jealousy and possessiveness, and replacement with self security, self reliance and self satisfaction---another big struggle--sometimes I go out and am absolutely carefree about anything with woman or who they are with..but other times the jealosy, as in the anxiety and fear about losing something that isn't even mine, or not understanding why one girl or woman would want to be with someone else instead of me gets pretty strong...it always dissolve pretty quickly with all the abundance of woman out there--but it can be like a nagging...I do feel this set has made it better though...SM actually shot my jealousy through the roof...
Constant self growth and progress--it is constant and sometimes seems huge and other times seem just daily learning and small differences that hopefully add up over time
1. There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness.
2. A thinker sees his own actions as experiments and questions... Success and failure are for him answers above all.
3. I would not know what the spirit of a philosopher might wish more then to be than a good dancer.-F.N.
2. A thinker sees his own actions as experiments and questions... Success and failure are for him answers above all.
3. I would not know what the spirit of a philosopher might wish more then to be than a good dancer.-F.N.
