01-19-2015, 06:21 AM
(This post was last modified: 01-19-2015, 06:23 AM by naturalself.)
At this point I'm not really sure if the program is having effect or not. I know stage 1 is supposed to be subtle. I felt it a lot in the beginning as I said, but I think a lot of that was placebo and also the state I was already in. However i've felt results from these programs before... So I'm going to continue.
I've ceased the visualization/affirmation because I got the feeling that they were conflicting with the program (as shannon often warns about). I also felt like I had to be a certain way when doing them "i have to be alpha to get girls" etc... I kind of realized from deconstructing some beliefs, that i just have to be myself (but confident/loving within that, and very dedicated to my purpose). Trying to adopt certain personality characteristics makes one very false and women are repelled by that, and it was also making me overthink what i was saying. I'm trying to unwind any pua/reading on the internet programming in my head, and just follow my gut. I am hoping the alpha program brings out these "alpha" traits, but in the most natural way. That is what I assume is the point of it.
I've started doing byron katie's the work, to deconstruct my beliefs (instead of trying to force new ones in my head), and allow a fertile ground for the program to plant the new ones. Feels more like the right move. I also practice Qigong and meditate when I have time, Workout, work on my art, read literature,poetry
Going to try to make my apartment look nicer, and upgrade my wardrobe soon, learn how to cook. I am still looking to become more independent in every way.
Seeing a girl on Friday. have seen her before and it kind of fizzled due to the fact we were both very unclear inside ourselves. It could be cool, I am in a way different place than before.
I've ceased the visualization/affirmation because I got the feeling that they were conflicting with the program (as shannon often warns about). I also felt like I had to be a certain way when doing them "i have to be alpha to get girls" etc... I kind of realized from deconstructing some beliefs, that i just have to be myself (but confident/loving within that, and very dedicated to my purpose). Trying to adopt certain personality characteristics makes one very false and women are repelled by that, and it was also making me overthink what i was saying. I'm trying to unwind any pua/reading on the internet programming in my head, and just follow my gut. I am hoping the alpha program brings out these "alpha" traits, but in the most natural way. That is what I assume is the point of it.
I've started doing byron katie's the work, to deconstruct my beliefs (instead of trying to force new ones in my head), and allow a fertile ground for the program to plant the new ones. Feels more like the right move. I also practice Qigong and meditate when I have time, Workout, work on my art, read literature,poetry
Going to try to make my apartment look nicer, and upgrade my wardrobe soon, learn how to cook. I am still looking to become more independent in every way.
Seeing a girl on Friday. have seen her before and it kind of fizzled due to the fact we were both very unclear inside ourselves. It could be cool, I am in a way different place than before.
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