08-20-2013, 01:50 PM
Stage 2 Day 22
Well most of day i am irritated by some stuff that people are doing. When they are acting like something is okay and its not i would literally explode now. (I never let anyone on me but now i think my tolerance is -10) which is kind a sad. Feeling very tired
My diabetes is having great results in last 20 days - and i am probably getting back on MMA to cut this heavy things in my head by punching something.
I am not goign out anymore as i used to go - now i am mostly at home chilling and relaxing and spending time with myself. ( i go out 1-2 times per week before i would go out 5 times)
Everything is so irriation this days from my family to my close friends, feeling of everyone hating me/not loving me is not anymore here instead i am hating everyone (
) what a strange spin )
Also i am not having contact with any girl (very strange for me ) - but somehow like i am starting to look for a relationship ( something is boiling in me) and i am lookin for some girl which is not going to be just good looking - need connection ( didnt feel this for long time ).
Now about feeling i am having in me - like i am sad for people who dont have money in life
- like i would like to help them. This sounds strange but i am starting to not want to buy expensive stuff - every time i take something which is above average - i would be like you dont need this. Also like i am starting to appreciate my family a lot more, and to respect everything i got from them in my life ( money is not everything in life but surely opens a lot of doors ). I KNOW THIS SOUNDS strange what i am writting but had to let it go out.
Well most of day i am irritated by some stuff that people are doing. When they are acting like something is okay and its not i would literally explode now. (I never let anyone on me but now i think my tolerance is -10) which is kind a sad. Feeling very tired
My diabetes is having great results in last 20 days - and i am probably getting back on MMA to cut this heavy things in my head by punching something.
I am not goign out anymore as i used to go - now i am mostly at home chilling and relaxing and spending time with myself. ( i go out 1-2 times per week before i would go out 5 times)
Everything is so irriation this days from my family to my close friends, feeling of everyone hating me/not loving me is not anymore here instead i am hating everyone (
) what a strange spin ) Also i am not having contact with any girl (very strange for me ) - but somehow like i am starting to look for a relationship ( something is boiling in me) and i am lookin for some girl which is not going to be just good looking - need connection ( didnt feel this for long time ).
Now about feeling i am having in me - like i am sad for people who dont have money in life
- like i would like to help them. This sounds strange but i am starting to not want to buy expensive stuff - every time i take something which is above average - i would be like you dont need this. Also like i am starting to appreciate my family a lot more, and to respect everything i got from them in my life ( money is not everything in life but surely opens a lot of doors ). I KNOW THIS SOUNDS strange what i am writting but had to let it go out.
