Alpha male... exhausting :/

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Stage 2 day 11

Okay guys - i am mostly spending my time alone. Last 4 days i was all alone - didnt go out or actually leave my home. Fixing my diabetes doses and i must say its working great now.
Although i have realised that noone is calling me when i am not calling them - only 2 persons - 2 of my best friends. This is bothering me a bit cause i just realised that my life is not what i think. I am someone who is all the time going out and hanging out with diffrent people, but now i understand that its when i am calling them.

I kicked all woman out of my life - i am starting to see the real side of them ... so belive it or not i am on 0 ( zero ) now.

I am not feeling stage, everything is going smoothly - wish i felt a it a bit - but something is happening definetly.


Have one question.

WHEN i am playing my subs, can i play them in background on computer while movie is going or music?
Or that is not good?
I mean by this so everyone understands me to play movie/subs on same computer at same time?

so far

- people clean up
- Woman clean up now on 0 for 1 week.
- working efficiently and in moment ( not wondering around with thoughts)
- Face skin clear like models
- Body fat is 10% again - abs are out , training 1.5 hour 5 times a week.
- Diabetes even better
- Panic attactks even better - last 5% left - one step at a time
- feeling like i am getting empty in one side of my life - but yet again filling up with other. - So i guess this other side ( emotional ) is getting cleaned up so i can fill it up with good stuff.
- sleeping better
- i am more easy/relaxed when doing stuff.

Did anyone go trough this kind of stuff in stage 2? I called it "cleanup" in my posts. Would like to hear others