Interesting post mat. You actually made me realize something and you are not alone. I think I got my degree out of fear as well. I didn't actually want to do it.. I just thought it was cool. I ended up doing it anyways and got a degree in it. I wasted my parents money and I don't want to go back to school to get another degree. I have moments where I feel like "will I ever make it in the 'real world'?"
Also... I guess I've wondered.. why am I really here. What is my purpose to being on this earth. I guess that is my only question and my only answer has been to be. To be the light.. and to share it. I've been reading "The Power of Now" by Eckhart Tolle and it's a fantastic book. If you like his teachings and choose to internalize them you will naturally become more of an extrovert without trying. It may be fulfilling for you to change people's lives. I was doing that at the very end of sex magnet and beginning my second run of alpha male. I just had no attachment to anything but had all the love and energy to share with everyone because when I did that I felt more awake and enlightened.
If you are unhappy then you've got to be happy. Realize that fear of course is only an illusion.. and we must as men continue to push ourselves. In whatever direction that may be. I am currently stuck at the moment but forgiving what is and letting it be has been a great help to me in the tough times. What I can suggest to you right now is get a job to support yourself as you find out what really tickles your fancy. I know what I want to do now to support myself but it may take some more time because I have to continue improving my craft before I can pass on my skills (in drumsszz) oh and singing too. Next American Idol audition.. watch for me.
I don't know if this helps you.. but trust me you are not they only one. Btw... you might benefit from using seek the challenge. Along the way you may find some new hobbies that you actually love. And will create new paths for you to choose from..
Also... I guess I've wondered.. why am I really here. What is my purpose to being on this earth. I guess that is my only question and my only answer has been to be. To be the light.. and to share it. I've been reading "The Power of Now" by Eckhart Tolle and it's a fantastic book. If you like his teachings and choose to internalize them you will naturally become more of an extrovert without trying. It may be fulfilling for you to change people's lives. I was doing that at the very end of sex magnet and beginning my second run of alpha male. I just had no attachment to anything but had all the love and energy to share with everyone because when I did that I felt more awake and enlightened.
If you are unhappy then you've got to be happy. Realize that fear of course is only an illusion.. and we must as men continue to push ourselves. In whatever direction that may be. I am currently stuck at the moment but forgiving what is and letting it be has been a great help to me in the tough times. What I can suggest to you right now is get a job to support yourself as you find out what really tickles your fancy. I know what I want to do now to support myself but it may take some more time because I have to continue improving my craft before I can pass on my skills (in drumsszz) oh and singing too. Next American Idol audition.. watch for me.
I don't know if this helps you.. but trust me you are not they only one. Btw... you might benefit from using seek the challenge. Along the way you may find some new hobbies that you actually love. And will create new paths for you to choose from..
"To love completely and hold onto nothing-that is the only freedom." -David Deida
"If at first glance it may appear too hard, look again. Always look again." - Unknown
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"If at first glance it may appear too hard, look again. Always look again." - Unknown
If you would like to get in touch with me, please send me an email.
