Alpha Male take two

[mat422]

So I threw disconnect from negativity within into the mix as suggested by Shannon. I don't know if it's too soon to notice, but I'm feeling a lot better. I think I kind of expected alpha to clear out a lot of my issues, but I probably need something in addition to it. I felt like alpha brought up these issues that were dormant and needed to be released. My brain is very logical and systematic so I wonder if my subconscious behaves in that manner as well. If alpha didn't touch on the things that were truly bothering me, then my subconscious might not have released it. Specific instructions might have been what I needed.

Lately I've been finding that if I entertain my mind with something else like a hobby I feel much better. It takes my mind off of a lot of stuff and grounds me for a while. It's not really a solution, but keeping my mind busy beats sitting around letting it run my life. In an ideal situation I should be able to sit still without having those negative feelings and thinking pop up, but that's simply not the case right now. I've tried meditation but I feel like I was expecting an outcome which I couldn't shake, defeats the whole purpose. I was basically meditating to get rid of an issue I had, but meditation definitely wasn't powerful enough. The subliminals do their job and I'm more content not dwelling on the issues and instead just try to enjoy life as much as I can.