11-03-2019, 01:55 PM
Stage 3/ day 1
Today marks the first day of stage 3, and I'm struggling with the feeling of inadequacy. It comes in waves. Sometimes I think I deserve to be happy, to do what my heart truly desires, and other times I think I shouldn't be aiming so high because I don't "qualify" or have what it takes to have certain things. I've struggled with it for as long as I can remember, and I've lost out on so many great opportunities and experiences because I wanted to wait until I was good enough to take action. I'm my biggest saboteur, and it's frightening because I can't run away from myself. Day in and day out I'm stuck with this "person" who won't let me live a meaningful life... I sincerely hope that AF helps me get over it once and for all.
Today marks the first day of stage 3, and I'm struggling with the feeling of inadequacy. It comes in waves. Sometimes I think I deserve to be happy, to do what my heart truly desires, and other times I think I shouldn't be aiming so high because I don't "qualify" or have what it takes to have certain things. I've struggled with it for as long as I can remember, and I've lost out on so many great opportunities and experiences because I wanted to wait until I was good enough to take action. I'm my biggest saboteur, and it's frightening because I can't run away from myself. Day in and day out I'm stuck with this "person" who won't let me live a meaningful life... I sincerely hope that AF helps me get over it once and for all.
