09-28-2019, 01:36 AM
Day 29
There's this vlogger/comedienne I follow. Her's is satirical brand of humour dealing mainly with corrupt government practices and racism. She recently released a book and I got around to reading it yesterday. The contents of the book were amusing... at first... and then I found myself getting riled up as I went further into the book. I was upset by statements I wouldn't have taken offence to in the past, infact I'd have probably found them funny. Then it occurred to me that I'd laughed at things of that nature in the past, not because I was genuinely amused by them but because I'd resigned myself to thinking that the world worked a certain way, that there was nothing I could do about it, and I just had to accept it. Me laughing was me sticking my head in the sand, and hoping nobody saw me or how I truly felt about certain matters. I got upset because something in me told me that it wasn't okay; denouncing everything you hold dear, purging yourself of who you really are in order to fit in with a crowd touted as elite. I realised that there are other ways of getting what I want or where I want in life, and I don't have to lie or keep up a facade to do it. The notion that the only way to achieve success (in its many capacities) is to be a phony, really got me going, and I decided right then and there that I wouldn't subscribe to it. I'm better than that. I don't need to lie or be a pretender to reach my aspirations. I'll be damned if I let someone else's preference become my law.
It's not a huge step, but it's a significant one: being able to tell right from wrong, and choosing what's right. xxxxxxx
There's this vlogger/comedienne I follow. Her's is satirical brand of humour dealing mainly with corrupt government practices and racism. She recently released a book and I got around to reading it yesterday. The contents of the book were amusing... at first... and then I found myself getting riled up as I went further into the book. I was upset by statements I wouldn't have taken offence to in the past, infact I'd have probably found them funny. Then it occurred to me that I'd laughed at things of that nature in the past, not because I was genuinely amused by them but because I'd resigned myself to thinking that the world worked a certain way, that there was nothing I could do about it, and I just had to accept it. Me laughing was me sticking my head in the sand, and hoping nobody saw me or how I truly felt about certain matters. I got upset because something in me told me that it wasn't okay; denouncing everything you hold dear, purging yourself of who you really are in order to fit in with a crowd touted as elite. I realised that there are other ways of getting what I want or where I want in life, and I don't have to lie or keep up a facade to do it. The notion that the only way to achieve success (in its many capacities) is to be a phony, really got me going, and I decided right then and there that I wouldn't subscribe to it. I'm better than that. I don't need to lie or be a pretender to reach my aspirations. I'll be damned if I let someone else's preference become my law.
It's not a huge step, but it's a significant one: being able to tell right from wrong, and choosing what's right. xxxxxxx