12-28-2013, 02:49 PM
I'd imagine your therapist will prescribe meditation. From what you're saying, sounds like you need it.
I know what you mean though. I myself have gone through so many layers in the last few days that I can only pin-point fear or, more correctly, "being scared" as an issue of mine.
I use anything to avoid everything, even my own life. It's like I'm on the outside looking in, I'm never inside of it, and any time I'm close to really immersing myself in my life or even myself, I react by distracting myself.
It gets worse too, because even if I am "wrong", it doesn't matter because I didn't really want to be doing that thing anyways. It's hard to explain, but it's like I'm doing things that don't matter to me so that I don't care if I'm wrong or mess up. In essence: I'm wasting my life.
Anyhow, I'll be interested to see how your therapist handles this.
I know what you mean though. I myself have gone through so many layers in the last few days that I can only pin-point fear or, more correctly, "being scared" as an issue of mine.
I use anything to avoid everything, even my own life. It's like I'm on the outside looking in, I'm never inside of it, and any time I'm close to really immersing myself in my life or even myself, I react by distracting myself.
It gets worse too, because even if I am "wrong", it doesn't matter because I didn't really want to be doing that thing anyways. It's hard to explain, but it's like I'm doing things that don't matter to me so that I don't care if I'm wrong or mess up. In essence: I'm wasting my life.
Anyhow, I'll be interested to see how your therapist handles this.
